"I was guilty and feel so bad for loving you Enzo. Hindi dapat kita minahal dahil una palang kilala ko na kung sino ka, kung sino ka sa buhay ng kapatid ko. Una palang hindi ko na kayang tanggapin dahil alam ko ang pinag daanan ni Nica.....and it hurt me so much."
Alam kong sinabi kong hndi na ako iiyak pero this is the last time na iiyak ako dahil sa nakaraan.
"I don't want to love you because of Nica. Kahit wala na sya ayaw kong isipin nya na inagaw kita at hindi ko na nirespeto ang pagiging mag kapatid namin....but I can't do that anymore. I don't want to think of that anymore----"
I swallowed hard as I filled the space between us.
"I want you in daughter's life and to my life Enzo." I sincerely said to him.
Hindi sya nagsalita tanging pinagmamasdan lang nya ang aking mukha. Medyo kinabahan ako dahil baka ayaw na nya sakin dahil nireject ko sya.
"I shouldn't do that Enzo, hindi ko dapat inisip lang ang sarili ko. I know I love you but still I rejected you-----I'm sorry for rejecting you Enzo. I'm sorry." I almost hysterical trying to get him sympathy.
Mariin kong nakagat ang aking ibabang labi. He don't talk at dumadagdag iyon sa aking kaba.
"Please talk." Halos nagmamaka awa kong sabi.
He sighed then I felt his hand on my arm. "Nessa." He softly called my name.
I looked straightly to his eyes and gave my full attention to him.
"I understand you and I know where your'e coming from....but you are right." He sighed. "May mga bagay na dapat i let go kahit ayaw natin at mahirap ipilit."
I frowned, trying to understand what he's trying to tell.
"Ayaw kong pilitin ka dahil lang may mga anak tayo. I know your always overwhelmed when you see our kids happy and I don't want you to----
Parang nakukuha ko na yung gusto nyang iparating. He is trying to find a reason to reject me. Reject me in a a good a way!
"So in those 10 days after rejecting you---" I stared at his eyes. "You already moved on in just 10 days? Nawala na agad yung nararamdaman mo sakin? Ganun ba? Hindi mo na agad ako mahal? May iba na ba agad? May nahanap ka ng kapalit ko?---or did you realized na hindi mo naman talaga ako mahal,huh?" I wanted cry. Damn it! I feel so frustrated.
"Or siguro hindi mo naman talaga ako minahal. Isa lang ako sa mga naging babae mo." Hindi ko na napigilang hindi mag hysterical.
"Hey, Nessa." He pulled my arm then he tried to calm me.
"What are you talking about?" He frowned.
"You are rejecting me. You want to make us even." I stated.
His lips parted in awe, like may nasabi akong hindi dapat.
"What?"
"Now that I want you then you want to reject me." I said.
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Seafarer Escapade 5: Renzo Luiz Fuentes
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