Wait ed. (Carla-Billy's Story)

Delaying the Inevitable

Remember that bench where I was waiting at that time I lost the bracelet which Billy gave me when we were seven?

I am currently sitting at that bench again, looking at the same bracelet, while waiting... still waiting for that guy.

Unlike before, I'm quite certain Billy would come.
He has to, because there's something we need to further talk about... again.
I'm beginning to get tired of meeting with him.
Ha! We never even had the chance to really talk and enjoy spending time with each other.

Instead of having the actual dates, we're meeting and talking to clear up some misunderstanding, settling whatever situations we are in, trying to save that future we are hoping we could have together.

The past month or so we're quite good.
I finally had my bestest boy become my best boy friend.
But things are beginning to become a bit blurry these days.
We haven't even celebrated our first monthsary, and here we are on the verge of breaking up, giving up.
Kung hindi pa ako nagpakipot before to grab that chance and press subscribe the moment he gave me that option, sana naka-one month man lang kami.
I-advance ko na kaya...

Aaah! If I were the one to decide, I will definitely let go and forget the content of those envelopes and continue with what we have now.
May plan naman na kami...

Pero, what if you were in my situation, how would you choose between love and dream?
Between yourself and the one you love?
Would you choose yourself and forget the other person?
Or would you choose the other person and forget about yourself?

Haha! I know how it's like choosing the other person....
But... that choice is like choosing myself as well, don't you think?

Our story is definitely one na magpapakilig to whoever would have heard it.
Childhood sweethearts to taguan ng feelings to finally naging kami.

I hope I can say "and we lived happily ever after", but unfortunately, there's no way our story is going that way.
At least... not from where I was looking at it right now.

Kung ako lang ang masusunod, bakit hindi?
YOLO
You only live once.
Saka na yung dreams...
The main thing is you're living for a reason.
It just so happen that my reason is someone.
And that someone is him.

Then i remember the talk we had yesterday.
We were both seated on the floor, hesitant to open those folders.
Parang box lang na magbabago ng kinabukasan namin....
Ang laman ng kahon ay isang milyong piso or isang pack ng hopya....

Sana may happy ending....
I won't ask for forever or ever after...
Happy ending lang, ok na ako.

———-

Billy's eyes were fixed to the file I have in front of me.
I gave him a weak smile, because somehow I knew what is inside this.

"Para tayong nag-exchange gift, Billy", I said, sabay tawa. Tawa lang, hanggang kaya pa, kasi mamya- hindi na ako sigurado.

He smiled at me, but his smile doesn't reach his eyes. Nararamdaman din nya kaya yung nararamdaman ko?

"Exchange gift na parang hindi tayo matutuwa. Carla, can we just forget about these things and moved on with what we have planned yesterday?"

That really caught my attention.
Whatever is inside this file is probably much scarier than the two folders he was holding now.
I am tempted to say, "yes".

Sige go, kalimutan na lang natin to.
Pinapagulo lang naman nya yung plot.
Pwedeng kilig muna ulit?
Saka na yung character development... story progression ...
Pwede kahit after na nung monthsary....
Loko! Ang tagal nung tampuhan namin, tapos, heto naman ngayon.
Hustisya naman....