Wait ed. (Carla-Billy's Story)

Little Star

Five Years Ago
The Netherlands/New York - 2 weeks
Baguio

We were lying on bed, my head on his chest, his one arm beneath me, the other hugging me to him. We fell asleep about an hour or two earlier.

I was full of joy.
I didn't know that it's possible to contain that much of happiness in one heart.
Para akong sasabog.

Sumiksik ako kay Billy habang yumakap sa kanya ng mahigpit.
Para rin kasing may alarm clock na anytime, isasampal sa amin yung time's up.
Pwede bang taym pers muna?
Break lang ng konti.
Ihinto lang saglit yung orasan.

Two years...
Sandali lang siguro yun.
We waited for years for us to be together, ano ba naman yung dalawang taon?
Tapos after nun, count down to forever na.

Aysus!
Count down to forever.

I smiled na medyo kinilig while I placed my left hand in front of me, staring at that key ring na binigay nya sa akin kanina.
Ang babaeng bumigay sa key ring!

I was watching the stars above us, while wishing to each one of them to grant me that wish.
Ever since I was four, wala na ata akong ibang wish kundi itong lalaking katabi ko.
I love him...
I love him, sobra.
Obsession na ata ito.

I was watching the night sky, hoping that one star would make a sacrifice to grant me that wish.
Sige na- millions of years naman na kayo dyan.
I only have this life time to spend with this guy.
Isang pa- falling star naman o...

I was smiling, kinikilig na para nang baliw, when I felt a kiss landed on my head.

"You didn't sleep?", he asked, as he held me tighter.

"I did. Nagising lang agad"

"You should have woken me up"

"It's fine. Gusto ko lang dito sa tabi mo"

"Ang sweet naman pala ni Patricia pag bagong gising. Can't wait to wake up every day with you beside me, P"

"Aysus... ang bilis tumakbo nung utak nya e. Bagong gising pa yan"

"Don't tell me hindi ka kinilig"

"Syempre, kinilig. Ikaw yan e"

Then he grinned, as he turned and rolled us over, so he was on top of me.

"Oh...oh...oh...", I said, as I tried to push him a bit.

"What?", he asked, smiling.

"Baka mahulog ako", I said, biting my lips, while holding that blanket closer to my chest.
Hindi kaya kami pulmonyahin nito?
Ang lamig pa naman dito sa Baguio.

"Matagal ka nang nahulog", he said, teasing me, as he held my left hand and kissed my ring finger. "I'll get you a proper ring next time"

"Next time when? Umaasa na ako, Billy. Pag hindi mo talaga ako pinanagutan, makikita mo"

"Pananagutan... paninindigan...pakakasalan...", he said, as he's slowly loosening my hold to the comforter, I didn't realize I was holding too tight.
Then I felt his lips landed on my shoulder, his lips travelled up to my neck.

"Your skin is all flushed, P", he whispered against my neck. I can feel his hold to my waist tightened, as he continued assaulting my neck.

"Do you regret it?", I asked softly, as I was running my fingers on his back.

"Ako talaga yung tinanong mo?"

"Na pinagpalit mo yung amazing sex dito... sa akin?"

Then I felt him stopped what he's doing, he lifted his body, held my face as he stared into my eyes.
I smiled weakly at him, regretting how this insecurity is ruining this perfect night.
I saw when his face softened as he tried to wipe the tears that I was trying to hold back.