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Regie's POV

What. What the actual fuck did I just hear. I'm now standing in Oliver's bedroom doorway staring straight at him, crying. This time I don't think I'll ever stop...

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A Few Minutes Before..

Me and the boys were all downstairs, just chilling and scrolling in their phones. Sebastian and Ryan were cuddling while watching tiktok, making sure that they gave eachother glances every once in a while, Justin and Darren were watching TV and were obviously flirting with eachother, Darren was rubbing his thigh under the blanket they had and Justin's face was as red as a tomato. Then there was Kane, texting someone and smiling. But as usual these days, Oliver wasn't in my sight.

I was just scrolling on Insta when I hear someone yell at the top of his lungs. "WHAT THE FUCK-" Sebastian yelled. Everyone of the boys instantly looked up at him, startled and confused. "Seb, baby....calm down. It might be a fan page edit-" Ryan tried too explain before getting cut off. "NO RYAN. IT WAS FROM HER FUCKING PAGE. THAT WAS HER. DID THIS MOTHERFUCKER ACTUALLY GET-" Sebastian cut himself off, getting up from the couch, running his fingers through his hair.

Ryan looked at me and almost instantly started too tear up before he got up from the couch and tried to calm Sebastian down. I looked back at Ryan confused and was genuinely not fully recovered from the screaming Seb just did. All in all, I was just perplexed. What the heck did Sebastian see, why did Ryan look at me like that. I'm all confused. "Sebastian, what the hell are you yelling about?" Justin asked irritated. "Take a look for your fucking self." Sebastian said, throwing his phone at Justin and stomping off to the bathroom, Ryan following close behind.

"Oh...My....God." Justin exclaimed. Darren looked over at Justin's phone and flung his hand over his mouth. "No fucking way." Darren said. Now at this point, I was getting concerned. "Wait wait wait, let me see-" Kane asked before backing up from Darren and Justin, mouth agape. "WHAT THE FUCK OLIVER, SHIT-"  Sebastian yelled, all the way from the bathroom. As soon I heard the name Oliver...I instantly got scared. What happened. After we all heard Sebastian yell, Manager Ty's room door slammed shut and Oliver's room door was opened. What happened.

I slowly opened Instagram and before I could truly look at my phone, we hear the bathroom door swing open and then slam, only too see a angry Sebastian basically sprinting up stairs yelling. "RYAN IMA FUCK HIM UP-" "SEB CALM DOWN LOVE-". I was already on the verge of a panic attack but when I hear Oliver's room door swing open, surely putting a hole in the wall, and hear "SEBASTIAN DONT-", I knew something really...REALLY bad happened.

I finally get myself out my head and  looked at my phone, actually observing the content on it, and right in front of me, the first post I see. Two baby's on a ultrasound picture. And from none other then IzzyTheRizzy. My thoughts, my heart, my world went dark. It felt like someone pushed me into the void and I'm infinitely falling. I couldn't hear anything after that, all I know is that I set my phone down and sat their, trying to not let tears fall down my face.

I heard loud muffled running footsteps but i couldnt look fully up too see what the sounds were, i was stuck in the void. The void of my thoughts. "OLIVER YOUR HAVING A BABY, WHA- WHAT THE FUCK." I hear Darren yell from up stairs.  Once again, the name Oliver knocked me out of my trance. I stared at the stairs for a bit longer before musturing all the strength i had left in me too get up and walk to Olivers room. I was already shedding burning tears at this point. Wanting to just run out the front door. As i got closer, i had too move out the way of the stairs because Ryan and Manager Ty were caring Sebastian downstairs, and Seb was fightimg their
hold, crying a screaming.

I move out the way and slowly walk up the rest of the stairs and see Oliver's room door wide open, i walk infront of it and just stood there. As soon as i saw Oliver, its like all of the emotions, thoughts, and feelings, came down on me all at once. The sadness, the anger, the disapointment, All. Of. It. When Oliver looked up and saw me, he instantly started to tear up, giving me a "im so sorry" look, but i didnt even let it sink in. I was one second away from going into that room and slapping the shit out of him. I just slightly shake my head and sprint too the front door. I just need too leave. I cant be here. I dont want be here.

I run to my car, not even thinking about where i was going or where i was going to end up, i just needed to leave. Tears were flowing down my face and i could barely see, my eye sight was blurry and my thoughts were basically controlling me. I speed off as fast i can, not caring if i was going to hit someone or hit something. I just took off. Trying to forget it, even though its impossible. I will never forget about this. I cant. This will never go away. This was the one thing i never EVER wanted to happem, and it did. I dont think im going to make it through this. I dont even want too stay concious for this, i wish i was in a coma.....maybe i can put myself in a coma. Maybe if i drive fast enough.

Maybe it'll be all gone when i do.
Maybe Oliver.
Maybe it'll be all gone.

Im sorry Oli, but i cant keep thinking about you.

I cant.