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It was 2:16 am when Regie walked into the door of the NSB house. Everyone was in the living room, and when they heard the door open, everybody who was falling asleep or were wide awake, stood up. The one boy that was fully awake was...Oliver. Oliver knew he had too talk too him, he had to explian everything too him. He needed Regie to understand. He just needed Regie.

Everybody heard the door close and got up from the couch, looking at the walk way from the front door to the kitchen and living room. Regie was walking slowly, because he knew, he knew all the boys were waiting for him to come home and he knew they were in the living room. Regie took a deep breath before walking into the kitchen, knowing everybodys eyes are on him. He slightly turned his eyes to everybody and saw the fear and distress in their eyes. Especially Oliver.

"Omg Regie- are you ok? Where the hell have you been?" Justin spoke first, breaking some of the tension in the room. Regie looked at Justin and saw that he was walking up too him, slowly. Regie just stared at him, not saying a word. Regie looked awat from Justin and looked straight at Oliver, instantly tearing up. Oliver look so dead inside, and Regie knew he must be struggling, but Regie couldnt stand it. What did Oliver expect him to do.

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Oliver's POV

When i saw Regie, i almost broke down. He started to cry as soon as he saw me and i felt like drowning right then and there. I know i hurt him too no return, i know hes hurting so badly right now, but so am i. I need him, i really really need him, and i know he needs me. Lets be honest here. I havent missed someone as bad as i do Regie, i have never longed for someones touch more then Regie, i have never be in love with someone, more then Regie and this past month and a half really made me realise that. I love him. Im in love with him.
I have to talk too him, even if it the last thing i do on this gosh forsaken earth.

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Justin was already trying to talk to Regie when Oliver took a deep breath and walked up too him, everybody staring at what Oliver was doing. Justin glared at Oliver but he didnt care, Oliver grabbed Regie by the arm and started to drag him upstairs. Regie was more then, "tooken aback" from this. Regie wasnt even mad, he was actually happy just to feel Olivers touch again. "HEY- WHAT THE FUCK?!" Justin yelled, scorffing before walking back to the couch, getting hugged by Darren. "What the hell-" Darren said, while running his fingers through Justins hair. They both look at each other with concern in their eyes before watching Oli and Regie walk upstairs, no longer in the sight of anyone.

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Oliver dragged Regie to his room, and with no words being spoken, he closed the door and sat Regie on the bed. Regie was still in shock but also just silent, not knowing what Oliver was going too do next. This was the first time Regie has been touched by Oliver in the last month and a half. Let alone talk too him. Regie looked up st Oliver and saw that Oliver was leaning against the door, staring at the sky through his window, looking at the stars. The onky light that was in the room was the moonlight, and it casted a beautiful glow on Oliver's face. Almost making Regie forget about what the hell was going on.

When Oliver noticed Regie was staring at him, Oliver couldnt help but smile, the same smile that made Regie fall in love with him in the first place. Regie sighed at the sight and looked down, knowing that he couldnt do what he was thinking of doing. "Regie..." Oliver said, walking up to him. "Regie, where were you?" Oliver asked, sitting down next too him. Regie was silent, not even looking at the boy. Oliver sighed, knowing that Regie wasn't going to speak too him. Hell, he wouldnt even speak too himself.

"Regie, i know i hurt you too no end. I know that i destroyed not only you but me too. I am so sorry i havent talked too you, that i didnt tell you what was going on. I know this is selfish too say but ive missed you so much, and i know you've missed me too." Olive paused, looking at Regie for a reaction, not getting one. "Regie, i know you might think i dont but i love you so much, im in love with you, and i need you too know that. Im so sorry for hurting you, i am so- so sorry. I wish i- i didnt even meet Izz- Izzy, i love you so much Regie Macalino. SO so m- much. I am so sorry. I pro- promise we will figure this out, i- promise Regie. I will make it up- to you. I love you so much. And i miss you so much and i-" and before Oliver could even finish what he was saying, Regie kissed Oliver. At first Oli was caught of guard, but the quickly faded away into the kiss. Their kiss was getting more and more felt, making sure they put everything they felt about eachother into the kiss.

Sadly the kiss was cut short by Regie, pulling away. Oliver was confused and sad but ultimatly complied. "Oliver..." Regie began. "Your going to be a father...a beaut- beautiful amazing father...too two kids and i want you too know that i love you too. I- I love you too the ends of the earth...but Oli-" Regie paused. "Me and you both know we cant do this. Izzy is the mother of your children..and she will d- do everything in her power to break us up...Oliver your stuck with her now...dont you understand that i cant belong to you now. You have a family to take care of n- now, and i know i cant be apart of it."

Oliver had tears in his eyes, not knowing what too do. "But Regie, that doesnt mean anything. I will do everything in MY power to make sure she doesnt break us up, Regie i cant get through this without you, please Regie i-" "Im going back too the Philipines." Regie cut off. Oliver stopped in his tracks. ".....what." Oliver asked, picking his head up too look at Regie. "Oliver, i tried to kill myself...thats what i was doing before i got home. I was going to crash my car but i somehow swerved and saved my self. This has tookin the biggest toll on me, i seriously feel like dieing but i cant. I have alot too live for Oli, and so do you, especially now. Oliver Moy, i love you so much to the point where i know i cant be here for this. It not healthy for me or you. Take care of your babies, and now your wife. Ill be leaving next in the next week anyway." Regie sighed. "I love you Oli but i cant....You cant....and we both know that." Regie looked into Oliver eyes one last time before kissing him again and then standing up from the bed. "Regie- i cant do this without you." Oliver cried, begging Regie too stay. Regue wanted too cry, but he could'nt. He just looked at Oliver and walked out the room, not wanted too look back and regret it.

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Oliver froze, looking at the door he just watched the love of his life walk out of, knowing he was probably never going to talk too again. Oliver's tears were frozen in his eyes as well, not falling or going back into his eyes, just frozen. Oliver couldnt breath, he couldnt blink, he couldnt even feel anything anymore. Oliver knew, it was over. Regie Macalino was going back home, his home...and Oli couldnt do anything about it. He felt like he was done. His mom probably has disowned him, his brother wont even speak too him, and the one person that he needed was leaving. Oliver crawled up in a ball on his bed. He couldnt cry, he couldt move. He couldnt even speak. Oliver was done.

Oliver was done.