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Let go

(A/N: warning. Sad. Chapter. If you don't want to read sad jonnor, go to a happy chapter :D. And if you do read it, quickly remember that jonnor isn't like that and it never happened!!!!)
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A tear fell down Connor's face as he stared at the weak boy in front of him. He couldn't believe this was happening, and desperately wanted this moment to be a nightmare instead of reality. His eyes glanced over at Jude's beeping monitor, which seemed pretty stable.
Jude had saved Connor again from a flying bullet. The two were walking home one day from visiting Lena at their former school, when all of a sudden, the two saw the cop and the criminal in a wild chase. Suddenly, a gunshot was heard, Connor looked over at the flying bullet, but it was quickly dodged, instead right into Jude's chest. And everything went silent.
No sound was heard at that moment. Connor was yelling and crying, but he couldn't hear himself. He saw Jude stumble to the ground, and desperately gasping for air as he laid there. Next thing Connor knew, he was in a cop car, going to the hospital as the car followed the ambulance that had Jude.
Connor let out a shaky breath as he entwined their hands together, looking at his uncomfortably sleeping boyfriend. "I love you." He whispered as another tear rolled down his cheek.
The two started dating about two years ago, and fell madly in love with each other. They were both 25 at the time they began their relationship, and today was supposed to be a special day.
Today, Connor wanted to take their relationship to a new level.
He had it all planned out; he wanted to take Jude to a nice dinner, walk with him in the park hand in hand, and to kneel down on one knee, and pop the question. Connor would've set that all up right after visiting Jude's mother.
Jude wasn't always the sappy type of guy, it was always Connor. The hopeless romantic Connor. Jude found him quite adorable and perky. He was always so fond of his taller muscular boyfriend. All it took was for Connor to say some dramatically romantic line, and Jude would laugh and give him a kiss.
Jude's family knew about the proposal that Connor was going to give him on this day. Callie, Stef and Lena have him a full approval, knowing that he's been such an amazing boyfriend for the past two years. Jude meant so much to Connor, that there was no way he was going to avoid this.
Until this very second. At this moment, it was 4 hours, 5 minutes and 7 seconds since the full afternoon started. And Connor couldn't of been more upset.
He eyed Jude longingly and dolefully, but he remained quiet. He waited for him to wake up.
He waited.
And kept on waiting until his boyfriend awakened.
But unfortunately, he was waiting so long, even these words can't tell you whether or not he made it. The author herself, did not know. She's waiting for the answer as much as this whole story is.
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Connor caressed the side of Jude's face, biting his lip as he tried not to cry once more. Lena and Stef tiredly sat in the chat inside the room, a box of tissues sitting next to the two. Lena took another tissue and dried her tears left on her cheeks. For the first time, her heart felt hollow. She didn't know what to feel.
No one really did.
In Connor's thoughts, he wasn't only sullen, he was angry. Angry at life, and why it did these things. Why should Jude be taken at such a young age? Why the fuck would any God do that to him?
He then realized that everyone doesn't have a completely perfect love story or family story. We come from fucked up places and fucked up pasts, Connor thought to himself. It doesn't make a difference anymore.
Connor still remained seated, looking at the pale features lying on Jude's face. Please wake up, he begged. Please.
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An hour later, his heart monitor sped up a little bit, and Jude slowly opened his eyes. "Connor." He whispered. Connor snapped his head up, and gasped.
"Jude." He whimpered, hugging his boyfriend and giving him a kiss on the lips. He pulled away from him, wiping his tears. "You're-you're alive." Jude stayed quiet.
"Connor." He said again. "I need you to know that I love you." He whispered in a faint raspy voice. "Nothing will change that. But it's time." Jude added, his heart monitor slowing down.
"Wh-what do you mean?" Connor asked, looking at him with terrified eyes. Jude didn't answer. Instead, he slowly closed his eyes, and slowly let everything drift away from him.
He let go.
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Connor woke up in a flinch, looking at Jude, and then to his heart monitor. It slowed down, until it had a long depressing beep. He held Jude's hand as it slowly turned lifeless, and his pulse began to die out.
And he left the Earth, on that very day. He may be gone, but his love for Connor will remain.
Connor quickly burst into tears, putting his head down onto Jude's chest. Please don't leave, he mentally urged to himself. He cried as a faint grey figure appeared behind him, a weak smile on its face-looking exactly like Jude's.
"Of course I'll marry you." He spoke, biting his lip, a tear rolling down the figure's own cheek.
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(A/N: OK GUESS WHAT IM NEVER GONNA DO THIS TO MYSLEF IT IS NOW 3AM AND I OFFICIALLY FUCKED MYSELF OVER OK IM CRUINF OK IMCNEVER WRITING SAD STORIES LIKE THESE IT HURTS TOO BAD.)
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