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The Photographer
" I'm a photographer, period. I love photography, the immediacy of it. I like the craft, the idea of saying 'I'm a photographer." -David LaChapelle
Chapter Twelve: Lost Myself 🌑
|| Compton Smith Point Of View ||
Today I was being released from the hospital which meant I would have to tell August what happened and why I ended up doing what I did😔. I'm an emotional reck at this point. I can't even look at my wrist without wanting to cry and yelled but I can't blame no one but myself for the scars. I sighed as August walked in the room with a mini duffle bag.
" There so clean clothes and what not in there I'll be in the hallway when your done." August said handing me the bag and kissing my forehead
Lord what did I do to deserve such a sweet and caring boyfriend like him ?
" Thanks August, For everything." I managed to say with crying
"I'm still your boyfriend so I'm going to be here for you no matter what no go wash up babe." August said walking out the room
I got off the bed and grabbed the duffle bag and made my way to the bathroom.
I turned the hot water on and stripped out of my hospital clothes and stepped into the steaming hot shower. I stood underneath the hot water and looked down at my arms. Tears streamed down my face as I stood there still looking at the horrible scars that I would have for life. I Lowly began to sing Amanda Perez I Pray to myself.
[Talking:]
You know with each day that passes by, I pray to god I'll never forget who you are.
You mean everything to me.
I love you
Ooooh Ooooh
Ooh I pray
You were in my dream
Before I even knew that there was a you and me,
Now I can't wait to see your smile,
When I wake up each day,
It makes it worth while
With the kinda love you plant inside,
Specially with a heart so empty as mine.
All your soft tenderness is the one thing that I don't wanna miss.
[Chorus:]
I pray,
When it's time for me to say goodbye
I'll never forget looking in your eyes,
I pray,
That I feel your touch
And that God doesn't forget our love,
I pray,
When I close my eyes,
I can still see visions of you on my mind.
I pray,
That I see you in another life,
I pray that you still by my side.
Oh I pray.
Everything that you give to me,
Only comes in a fantasy,
It seems like life goes by so fast,
But in this time I wanna make it last. (I pray)
I hate that we live to die,
But only God knows why (I pray)
We all have a purpose,
And to see you again it'll be worth it.
[Chorus]
[Slow rap:]
I wish that I could stop time,
I wish that I could rewind,
To the very beginning of every second of my life.
To ask God on my hands and knees,
To never let me forget all my special memories.
See I'm only promised today,
And if it's my time to go,
I don't want the love of my life to ever fade away,
So one last time
Let me open my eyes.
To see what my life used to be like.
Oh God.
[Chorus]
Once I was finished to song I washed to soap off my nude body and get out the shower. I dried off and got dressed I a pair of white and black joggers and a black crop top with a black hoodie an a pair of nike slides. August had already put my things inside the car. I signed my discharge paper and made my way out the hospital. Well kind of the paparazzi attracted T , August and myself with question.
" Justine did you really try and Kill yourself ?"
" Did you do it for attention ?"
" Is Justine even your real Name!"
" Your just like all the rest of them."
" Attention Whore !"
" It's a shame what people will do for attention and money."
T stared pushing them back as August and I ran to the car. Once we got in I put on my seat belt and looked out the window as hot tears rolled down my face. Everything that they we're say was like a slap in the face on top of the fact that I tired killing myself. I've lost myself and I need to find my way back to the way I was before I became a singer.
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||1 Week Since Compton was Released||
"Babe are you sure you wanna go to the A&S today?" August asked me for the 10th time
"yes I just want to shoot this video and then come back home." I said laying my was on his shoulder
" A video to what song?" August asked wrapping his arms around me
" I'm going to do a cover to TLC Unpretty, in the Graffiti room at A&S." I said standing up and grabbing August hand.
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We arrived at A&S in 15 minutes tops. We it out an made out way inside to the graffiti room. Today god the building was closed today since August and I didn't want to come in. Well August didn't I can't I'm not been supposed to leave the house. I'm supposed to be resting my arms and body but I really need to get this cover out I think this will help me get back to my old self before the fame and everything.
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I'm cutting it right there because the next chapter will be her singing Unpretty and few other things. Tell me what y'all think ?
Oh and her singing Amanda Perez is because she was think bout her and Rocky's dad who committed suicide. ( I'll get into that later)
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The Photographer & All Or Nothin (Books 1 & 2) #Wattys2015 #ImJustCreative
FanfictionBook One: The Photgrapher Book Two: All Or Nothin Compton Smith has dreamed of being a photographer for Famous people. She finally gets her big break when R&B singer August Alsina ask for her to be his Photographer.
