The Photographer & All Or Nothin (Books 1 & 2) #Wattys2015 #ImJustCreative

| Epilogue|

3 Months Later

Compton Smith

It's been 3 whole months since August told me Leah is pregnant. Of course in still hurt and upset but there's nothing I could do. I still stead almost every waking moment with August. Mecca is spending the day with her god father (Rocky) so that gave me a chance to work on some new music and look over some paper work for A&S. I grabbed my note book and Mac an sat at the island and started wiring random lyrics down. I looked down at the lyrics sheet and inhaled a deep breath as I realize I was rewriting the lyrics to Heather Headley In My Mind & I Wish I Wasn't 😔.

"In My Mind"

Imagine seeing him on the town
Holding another hand
She's starin' me down,
So I figure that he told her who I am.
But it don't matter either way,
What they do or say cause ain't nothin' changed.
He's standing with her, but his soul is calling out my name.

In my mind, I'll always be his lady.
In my mind, I'll always be his girl.

Saw his momma just the other day,
Said he'd been through a spell.
Had a bad break up, thinks he's on his way up, it's hard to tell.
She said I think it'd do some good if you called him every now and then.
You see he's been through some things and I'm thinking he could really use a friend.

In my mind, I'll always be his lady.
In my mind, I'll always be his girl.
Only time can tell if I'm his lady.
But in my mind, I'll always be his girl.

They say if you love something, you've got to let it go.
And if it comes back, then it means so much more.
But if it never does, at least you will know,
That it was something you had to go through to grow.

In my mind, I'll always be his lady.
In my mind, I'll always be his girl.
Only time will tell if I'm his lady.
But in my mind, I'll always be his girl.

Always feel this way about ya,
Always be your lady,
In my heart, in my mind.
In my heart, in my mind.
In my soul, in my mind.
Baby you should know,
You're in my thoughts, in my mind.
You're in my prayers, in my mind.
I'll always keep you there.

Yeah, yeah, yeah.
Yeah, yeah, yeah.

......

"I Wish I Wasn't"

[Verse 1]
I'm home alone again
And you're out hangin with your friends
So you say
Somehow I know it's not quite that way
It's getting pretty late
And you haven't checked on me all day
When I
called you didn't answer
Now I'm feeling like your ignoring me
I wish that you were home
Holding me tight in your arms

And I wish I could go back
To the day before we met
And skip my regret

[Chorus:] I wish I wasn't in love with you
So you couldn't hurt me
it just ain't fair the way you treat me
No you don't
deserve me
Wasting my time thinking bout you when you ain't never gon change
I wish I wasn't in love with you so I
wouldn't feel this way

[Verse 2]
When you touch me my heart melts
And everything you did wrong I forgive
So you play me and take advantage
Of the love
that I feel for you
Why you wanna hurt me so bad
I believed in you that's why I'm so mad
Now I'm drowning in
disappointment
And it's hard for me to even look at you
And I wish that you were home
Holding me tight in your arms
And
I wish I could go back
To the day before we met
And skip my regret

[Chorus]

[Bridge]
Said you care about me
But from what I see
I ain't feeling that
So I disagree
Gave you all my love
And understanding

And you're treating me like your enemy
So leave me alone
Don't want nothing from you
Just go back where you came from

This house is no longer your home
You are not welcome no no no more

[Chorus]

[Verse 3]
Hear you knockin' at the door again
I'm wonderin' should I let you in
I open up the door and see
The flowers for me
So
beautiful in your hand
Please stop begging me to take you back
I've always been a sucker for romance
And before you know
it I concede
You're all over me
Oh no here I go again
I wish I wasn't in love with you
So you couldn't hurt me

I sighed heavy tossing my lyrics book across the kitchen an putting my head in my hands. August getting Leah Pregnant effected me more than I thought it would but why? It is because I still love him deep down inside or it because hell always be my first and only real love and I'm so get that he would betray me in such a way.

"lord I need your help, I'm lost without August, but I can't forgive him not now, I need you to guide and heal me for the sake if my baby Girl Mecca. Truth be told she is he only reason I wake up every morning and force a fake smile on my face as I work along side August at the studio, A&S and taking care of Mecca. if is wasn't for her id probably be depressed all over again. Lord please help me I can't go back to being that person who had suicidal Thoughts or Suicide attempt I have a daughter to look after. Lord I can't do this on my own with out you I'm nothing. Lord I don't want to end up like my father but i feel like without  august I'm useless😔.

....
Poor Compton I think she's falling back into old way 😔😱😪

I hope not

I legit listened to both songs while I typed this.

I thought I was gonna type this up tomorrow but I guess not so that mean I can start All Or Nothin' 😊😊

Lialih 💜💜

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I'll be posting the prologue to All Or Nothing in like 10 mins 😁💜

Both the old and new cover will be posted with the prologue.