Anonymous Journal - Lucy

My life is a wasteland.

my life is a wasteland and school fucking sucks. i don't want to be there. i don't want to do the stupid homework and i don't want to be around the people. 

I've been feeling sick to my stomach all day and it still hasn't gone away even though school ended three hours ago. i feel so bad. i don't want to grow up. I'm so fucking afraid of growing up. i hate school. i hate growing up. i don't want to grow up. i don't want to go to school.

i want to sit at home and listen to music but even music isn't helping right now. i can't even finish all the homework i got on the first goddamn day, that's how shit it is right now. i want to do good but i already feel like shit. 

i don't have any friends. 

sometimes i just want to run away and create a new life for myself. a new name, a new story. i don't want to be who i am anymore. i just want to be someone else. i wish i could be someone else.