everyone says I'm too young
they don't know about the gun
don't say young when you mean dumb
little do they know
i'm not too dumb
i know what i'm doing
you focus on what i put myself through
maybe it's time to focus on you
we both know how you'll cope
when i finally shove these pills
down my fucking throat
it's inevitable
ain't it so incredible?
you're looking at another teenage tragedy
what a stupid fucking travesty
ain't it pathetic?
I'm more hopeless than romantic.
we dance around words we should say
i know we both hope they'll just go away
things aren't ever that easy
she told you from the start
that i barely have a heart
i swear I'm trying to stay clean
but being clean makes me so fucking mean
all i wanna do is see blood
maybe a loaded gun
ain't it so much fun?
now i won't write the end
just so you can pretend
that I'm not going to shoot myself
in my fucking head.
this is just a mix up of some songs I've been writing lately. i won't explain anything about this because these are my secrets spilled out onto a screen for countless strangers (andyou) to read. i'll regret this tomorrow, but tomorrow isn't today and right now this is my choice to make. who cares about the future when you can't see past the grey?
don't grow up like this.
xxL
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Anonymous Journal - Lucy
אקראיi'm Lucy. that isn't my real name. this is my rambling. enjoy. or don't.