Anonymous Journal - Lucy

it's october 23

a year ago yesterday i was hospitalized for suicide

a year ago today i was in the hospital.

i was in the hospital until the 27th.

i don't want to go back

but im fucking dying again

i feel

hurt

and 

abused somehow

like

idk

i know why i feel like this

but i would rather deal with it

than have blood on my hands.

i fucking hate