"I'm sorry" he says before I can even utter a word.
"Harry, I..."
"I don't know what got to me. Maybe I thought you wouldn't leave without saying goodbye to me. Apparently I'm not always as smart as people seem to think I am"
I chuckle looking down.
"Is,... Is there anything I can do?" he asks.
I shake my head.
"I'm the one who should figure things out" I sigh, "Funny thing to do when I thought I already had them figured out. And I'm really sorry I lied to you" I say looking at him and realizing that up until now, I didn't even get the chance to apologize.
"Apology accepted" Harry gives me a warm smile and brings me closer to him. "This is not a goodbye" he whispers as he rocks me gently in his arms; "We'll see each other very soon"
I fight back the tears: these are the exact same words he said to me almost two years ago when I left after spending a whole summer with them.
"Bye, Harry" I say, kissing his cheek.
He returns the kiss and hugs me tight again, then he walks to Mark, waving goodbye with a small smile.
I walk the metal detector and make my way to the jet. I greet the flight attendant and sit, looking out the window. As the plane takes off and Munich gets smaller beneath my feet, I replay the conversation with Niall in my head: Who would have thought he had everything planned? I don't even know what I'll do next summer; how can he have his whole future figured out? The only thing I know about my future for sure is that in two years, my life will turn around completely. Whatever I end up doing, going from university to the actual world is going to mean a big change in my life.
Apparently Niall's life has already had all the dramatic changes and maybe that is why he has his future as a certain thing. I had never seen it like this, but our futures are complete opposites: his all planned and settled in a couple of years; mine a big question mark with no answer for at least a couple of years.
And it is only now when I realize something: how do you combine love when the people's lives point to different directions? Who gives in? Or better ask: why does anyone have to give in?
Without being able to find the answer, I fall deeply asleep.
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I wake up before landing. A couple hundred feet down, the English fields and houses, are getting bigger and bigger until the jet lands with a slight bump.
I stand up, thank the flight attendant and the pilot and leave the aircraft. I make my way through the terminals until I finally get the bus that will take me to the city. Once in the vehicle, I look for a seat next to the window, rest my head on it and wait until the bus leaves.
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If You Let Me Know... [N.H.]
FanfictionSequel to If I Let You Know... It's a completely different story and you can read it without having read the previous one (although you'll be able to understand some things better if you have read it)... but do as you please! Copyright © All Rights...