Drugs, Sex, Family, Friends everything is fuckt up. (justin bieber fanfic)

''No, no, no! Do not even dare to say that again!"

I sighed... I didn't know what to do at that point... Should I let him explain or let him stay there and wait til he's tierd?

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I missed him... I want to be in his arms right now....

STOP Alyssa! He fucking broke your heart and you started using drugs again, and you wanna go back to him?

But... His smile made me always smile... His perfect hazel brown eyes made me melt everytime he looked into my eyes. I still love him...

My heart says 'let him explain, I know you still love him that's why you should let him explain' but my brain says 'Idiot don't do this, he'll broke your heart again'

I didn't know what to choose my heart or my brain?

I'll go with the brain this time...

''Please Alyssa, let me explain.'' Justin said

I love to hear his voice...

No, no, no! Do not even dare to say that again Alyssa!

''Explain what?" i said trying not to sound like I cried. ''Everything'' he said

his voice got deeper since last time I heard him... Oh my God I just wanna be in his arms right now!

My heart took over. Before I could stop myself I opened the door... He hasn't changed much, only that his hair was now spiked up and it was shaved on the sides, and his voice got deeper and he was really hot! But the question is, has his personality changed?

''And what's that 'everything'?" I said looking into his beautiful hazel brown eyes but looked away quickly.

''You know what I'm talking about..'' he said nervously

''No, tell me.'' I said ''C'mon in'' taking two steps back so that he could come inside

''Well... First I want to apologize fo-'' He couldn't finish his sentence cause I interrupted him.

''Wait... Let's go up to my room.'' I said ''Okay'' he replied

*In the room*

I watched Justin as he took a look around in my room while I sat on my bed waiting for him to continue from what he started to say downstairs...

''Look I-'' we both laughed

'Stupid idiot don't laugh!' the voice in my head said.

fuck, he has the most perfect laugh ever...

*Justin's P.O.V*

Gosh, her laugh... I want her...

''You'll go first..'' she said.

Her beautiful dark brown eyes, she's so gorgeous... This sounds so cheeky but I don't care I've missed her and to be with her here right now, it's like a dream coming true. I love her and I don't know why she's mad.

''Okay.. To begin with, I want to apologize just in case I've done something that made you angry and that you don't/didn't want to talk to me, and-'' I couldn't finish my sentence

*BACK TO ALYSSA'S P.O.V*

I let out a sarcastic laugh ''Seriously?

''What?" he said, pulling his eyebrows in a thin line

'' 'I want to apologize just in case i've done something that made you angry' '' i repeated his words

He was confused, he looked at me like i had five heads or something

''You were gone for like three years and all of sudden you pop out of nowhere'' i said looking into his eyes

''I had to'' he said looking away from me running his fingers through his hair

''Had to what?" I said with my eyes full of tears, I don't like crying infront of him cause he was the one who learned me how to be strong and never give up.

''I-i..'' he said

''You what?" i said impatiently

''The cops were after me because of some business and you know why..-''

''No I don't'' my eyes got bigger, cause he never told me that he had business with the police before.

''Well... It all started when I found out that you were using drugs and i told you to give me everything you had, so when I was on my way home I forgot that the drugs were in my pocket and i was driving pretty fast so the cops were behind me and pulled me over and he asked me if i had something that could hurt him and and i said 'no' then he asked me if i could step out of the car, so i did. And when I got the little bag of kokain fell out of my pocket in some wierd way and i got arrested for three years...'' he looked into my eyes i could see the pain and the suffer he went through

It was an awkward silence for 10 minutes

''Why didn't you just blame me?" i finally spoke up I can't be mad at him for this he sat in jail in three years because of me...

''I can't blame on someone who means the world to me and still does.'' he said leaning on my computer desk

Those words... He makes me always feel like i'm a princess, i can't be mad at him. I just can't.

~sorry for bad updating i'm on vacation so i won't be posting so much, love you readers.~