That Shokoy Stole my First Kiss ✔

Chapter 32 - Opened

In every people has a treasured chest inside. It should be kept and no one should touch it except you, the owner. There's a lock. And the lock represents your control. Control your emotions or else it would be used as your weakness. lock it as many as you can. so that no one could ever open it.

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I treasured this. I shouldn't have let my guard down. I should've known ever since that thing happened. who would've thought he could enter and opened my heart. I was locking this for a long time. Di ko inopen ang sarili ko sa iba cause I am scared. scared of having someone in my heart and knowing he might be temporary. I'm scared of hurting and suffering. 

The reason why I closed my heart and not trusting boys, it is because of my dad. babalik siya, he said. he would fix things, he said. pero ni ha ni ho, hindi na siya nagparamdam after he left us. Hindi sana gagrabe ang galit ko sa kanya. pero gabi gabi, nagigising ako na ummiiyak si mama dahil sa kanya.. that's when I decided not to trust boys and to hate them all.. kasi, parepareho lang sila.

I locked myself through my own cage. yung Alice na masayahin at iniisip na laging may pag-asa, ay kinulong ko at pinalitan ng mas matapang na Alice. But that guy. that freakin' guy made me trust him. It feels like i'm on the edge of the cliff and he's trying to rescue me. Rescuing me from the hatred I have. then I realized he wasn't only the one. 

I keep on running. running away from my own feelings.. 

scared of this. scared of falling. 

pain, hatred, love... 

Should I accept and embrace those feelings?

"Alice?" napalingon naman ako. there he is. napatigil ako at lumapit siya papunta sa akin. "tapos na yung culminating? wait..." he searched my face...

"uy! bakit ang pawis pawis mo? tsaka bakit ka naman tumatakbo ha? teka." kumuha siya ng panyo mula sa bulsa niya at pinunasan ang pawis ko. "did you ran for a marathon?" he chuckled. why is he like this? why? 

"hey, are you okay? you look pale. gusto mong pumunta sa clinic?" 

my heart beats faster again. ah. is this what Sandy feels for Box?

"Alice? bakit di ka nagsasalita jan? you're making me worry." 

"you're really an idiot shokoy." I said smiling.

"ha?"

"for making me run.. you're really and idiot." I looked at him. this guy doesn't fail to make my heart flutter.. If he's rescuing me, then I'll take his hand. for now. 

"what? wait.. hey! Alice!" 

I'll give you my permission to court me. but please, don't make me cry. Kent.

*3rd Person P.O.V*

Pagkatapos tumugtog ng banda nila Gab ay hinubad kaagad ni Ren ang kanyang gitara na nakasabit sa katawan niya. agad siyang umalis sa gym at hanapin si Faye. hindi niya akalaing tatakbo siya paalis sa gym. was his voice that bad? even though he practiced every night for that song. to sing it for her. was it that really bad? he was running through places. it's bean 4 mins since she left the gym. 

"If I were her, saan ako pupunta? how would I know?" he said to himself.. good thing dito siya gumraduate. even though he changed schools alam parin niya ang mga pasikot sikot dito kahit nagbago ito ng konti. napatingin siya sa maliit na daanan. Faye likes quiet places. he thought. he smiled. tumakbo siya papunta sa daang yun.. 

pagkadating niya doon ay pansin niyang walang tao doon. he even looked the back of the mini fountain, kaso wala din. he sighed. napaupo naman siya sa bench at napayuko.