BROKEN

chapter 10

  I lazily dragged myself up from the bed. I picked my coat up to go out before anyone woke up. It was that day of the year again when I felt so guilty. It was going to be seven years since father passed away.

  I gently closed the door behind me so no one would wake. I walked to the  place where father had been buried. I bent down near his grave as a tear escaped my eye. It was all my fault and it hurt so much because the one who made me do all this things was not even worth it.

  "father,it's been seven years today since you left. I am sorry I wasn't the best daughter,the kind of daughter you wanted. I tried so much father and I am still trying. I already have a great job and I am so sorry I wasn't able to prove to you how much I love you and how proud I am to have a father like you"i wiped the tears coming from my eye now.

  "you always told me to be confident, determined and brave. I guess when I  realized all that it was already too late because you were gone. I have always been proud to call you dad but I didn't  make you proud enough of Me but I am promising you father that I will always do my very best to make you and mother proud. I miss you so much father"

  I walked back home few minutes later. I passed by mother's room then I heard some silent cries from the other end. I knew how much she missed father even though she always tries to stay strong.

  I opened the door to her room,i just wanted to be there for her but even more than that I felt guilty.

  "mother"I said hugging her from her back then I saw the portrait she was holding in her hand. it was fathers

  "please stop crying, i am here for you and I will always be here for you.  I know it is all my fault"i said amidst tears then mother held my hand.

  "don't say that zeenat, it was your fathers time. You know God creates us and takes us back when he thinks it's time. Probably your father had completed all his mission here on earth and do you know what"she said wiping away the tears from her eye "no one, not even you could have prevented him from going because when God says it is time, then it is really time"

  "mother, sometimes I am surprised at how you can be this strong"I said hugging her again..

  "you know, anytime you feel sad or distressed you can think of all the happy times you spent with your dad. He loved you and even till his last breath he did. And I know you also are aware of it" mother explained.

  "mother, I will and don't forget that I love you so much too"

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Knock knock

  "that must be usman at the door"mother said

"mother, don't tell me you invited him over for lunch or something because why is he here"I asked puzzled.

  "don't be harsh, he is here to take Layla out with Khalid for ice-cream"mother explained

  "hello"usman said as he walked into the house.

"Good afternoon"

   "how are you doing dear"mother asked

"I am very fine"he replied smiling

  "I will be taking Layla out with me and Khalid, is that okay with you?"he asked facing me. What was I supposed  to say?? No??

  "yeah, sure but please don't stay out too late"I said with my best attitude.

  "or would you like to come"he asked

"no, I still have some stuffs to do. It's okay if you guys just go without me. Maybe next time"I  smiled.

  "okay, bye"he said going outside with Layla.

"bye"layla said and mother replied "bye dear, be on your best behaviour".

  "why would he want me to come with them"I  asked facing mother after usman had gone.

  "he was just trying to be nice but I can't say the same for you"

"mother!,I was nice"

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