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They say youth is the most beautiful moment in life,

I say not

My youth turned out to be a bitter one
My whole life was a mess,
A catastrophe that tore down every pillars of my hopes and dreams
A tragedy that broke my legs so I wouldn't be able to run anywhere

I am like a sad song
You might think I'm beautiful
And as you try to find meaning in me,
You get lost in the sound
You pretend that you understand me
When you've only ever reached the tip of the iceberg
Because, in truth, between these lines
I'm nothing but a sad song

But, even in sad songs,
There exist happy memories
Those kind of memories that you can't ever return to
Those people became my happy memories

My youth was saved
And I escaped the ruins of myself
Now I write this letter,
Not because I want to be remembered but
Because I want to remember them

"Every man dies,
but not every man lives."
I lived.

I want to be reminded,
Of the things that made me feel alive
That for a short moment,
I was alive

That in this life I led,
I wasn't just living
I struggled to keep myself alive
To be with the people that I love
And it was the most beautiful moment in my life.

I burned out my youth,
And watched it burn in front of my eyes,
Like a sudden spark,
It beautifully lit up the whole sky
Before it disappeared again without a trace

When that day comes,
When I am lying on my deathbed,
I will read this letter to myself
And I will have no regrets
For I lived a meaningful life
With the people who are proof that I was once

Alive

Kim Taehyung
02. 26. 2017