{Quoia}
I think it's just funny how people move around me. I thought to myself today about such nice unexpected things I do for people and getting nothing in return.
Like I get it 'don't expect anything back.' But if I'm CONSTANTLY doing this, why haven't you thought; " Oh this would be nice for sequoia!"
I think I'm actually getting to that point where I wanna spazz. I just wanna get to the point where I can say I'm happy. Every time I go to the doctors office and they ask me am I happy, I hesitate.
I'm NOT happy. I was for a few weeks but I'm not anymore. And I knew i wasn't happy for those couple of weeks either.
I pray at least everyday for this happiness. And I get it. Then it's gone. Like I don't know how to keep it.
I feel the bad energy from people everyday. But that was nothing new.
This is all a test I really wanna past.
Here I am helping people knowing I can't help myself. Here I am with this mindset that know understands.
I NEED NEW FRIENDS. I NEED TO GO AWAY. I NEED TO MOVE.
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