Supernatural Imagines

'The Fear Of Losing You' (Castiel)

🎶Song for the imagine🎶: 'Heal' By Ellie Goulding

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You hugged your knees, bringing them as close as you could to your body. You felt empty inside, like someone had taken your feelings away... more like snatched them away in the most gruesome way possible.

Last night... You couldn't let go of it. It started off as the best night possible but it turned into the biggest mistake of your life.

19 hours ago...

"I never thought of you being so-" You said breathlessly but he cut you off. "Unholy?" Cas said and you bit your lip.

"No baby... You're so serious all the time and I just-I'd never see you so-" You were finding it hard to describe your thoughts because of how unexpected right now is.

"Open and driven?" Cas interrupted again and you rolled your eyes. You grabbed his tie and wrapped it around your hand, your eyes drifted to his lips as you moved closer.

"Stop interrupting me assbutt... Finish what you... started," You grinned and he kissed your neck. Cas leaned forward, kissing you on the lips. He pushed you till you fell back onto the bed.

"Oh Casss, f-" You moaned as you messed with his shirt. "Rip it off if you need to, I'll get another one," He growled in such a serious tone that you laughed.

He paused for a moment, you refused to spoil his perfect dress shirt. He took it off quickly and threw it to the far side of the room, along with his tie.

"There's no need to be uncooperative [y/n]," He was so flat that you raised an eyebrow. You ran your hands down his back from his neck, exciting him more.

"Why so tense Cas?" You whispered softly and he shut his eyes to stop himself from shivering. "It's what happens when you turn me on," He said, "All I want is you."

"Oh, vocabulary huh? Didn't know you knew what that meant," You chuckled and he put his hand over your mouth. "Shut up. We can talk about this later," Cas instructed and you smirked.

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"Damn it Cas, I needed you so bad," You shifted as you lay down, unable to speak properly because of being breathless.

He was breathing heavily, "W-What just happened?" You turned and looked at him, hugging onto his arm, "You have definitely changed the image of yourself in my mind Cas."

He pulled his arm away and sat up, "What we did..." You sat up as well, "It was amazing Cas. What's wrong?"

He turned back, sadness in his eyes, "It was a mistake." You looked at him with confusion, "What do you mean? You were completely... in it!"

He got up sharply and went over to the corner of the room to get his clothes. "N-No... It was my libido. Nothing else," He denied, wearing his shirt furiously. You put on your shirt as well.

"Cas please, what's wrong?" You asked softly and walked over to him. You placed a hand on his shoulder and he stepped closer to you.