"Lauren are you sure this is a good thing for her?" Ally nervously walked beside me as I made my way to my patient's room. I couldn't help but sigh even though I knew the small Texan was just trying to look out for the two of us. When we came upon the elevator we stepped in and waited for it to take us to the designated floor. Despite what happened yesterday I couldn't help but anticipate the moment where I got to see the Y/E/C eyed girl again. There was just something about her I couldn't pinpoint that made me want to stay in her presence all day.
"Yes Ally, and it wouldn't hurt to try different things to see what works and what doesn't." I explained as the elevator came to a stop on the floor below where I needed to go. I impatiently tapped my foot as other staff members got off and on while taking forever to do so. "I want to do as much as I can to help her." I ended softly before looking down at the blonde doctor. She smiled with a nod and eventually dropped the conversation which I was grateful for. Partially because I didn't want to talk about it anymore and partially because I didn't want to wait to end the conversation since I wanted to start working as soon as I could. When the elevator finally stopped on the last floor I practically bounded towards the younger girl's room. When I walked in Y/N was sitting on her bed, her back against the wall with her knees to her chest as she just stared at the wall. I couldn't help but smile to myself as Y/N rested her chin on her knees. "Hi Y/N." I shyly smiled in her direction.
The taller girl only looked in my direction before she looked down at the bed below her. I sighed to myself before going to sit on the edge of the bed while my body faced the taller girl. "I arranged for us to go walk around town if you're up for it." I spoke quietly because I knew Y/N was still apprehensive about what happened yesterday. The air was almost awkward but I tried to ignore it as best as I could and just focus on getting Y/N out into the open air. "Just you and I, and we can do whatever you want. We can start off with getting some breakfast, coffee, anything. It's all up to you." I tried to bargain honestly praying to god she would want to get out of this room for once. Y/N shrugged one shoulder before picking at her bedsheets. I saw that for once when she wasn't doing anything her hand stayed stable, it was shaking or twitching or anything. I felt somewhat proud that at least that was a step. Shivers ran down my spine as Y/N's raspy voice filled my ears in a quiet tone.
"I've never been outside before." She muttered. "Unless they were transferring me from hospital to hospital." My heart clenched at the news. I took a deep breath and tucked my knee under my other leg as I sat further on the bed. Y/N watched my movements without meeting my gaze, her eyes dark and observant to everything that was going on around her. I wanted to reach out and hold onto her hand but I also knew that it wasn't really my place yet, I didn't know how her comfort level sat with me especially with what happened yesterday. Instead I kept my hands to myself and instead watched as Y/N sullenly messed with her fingers.
"Well now's your chance Y/N, it's just up to you on whether or not you want to go. I'll be there every step of the way if that helps." Please say yes. Finally the patient met my eyes with another shrug of her shoulders and I took that as a yes so I quickly stood up and pulled her off the bed to follow behind me as I cheered in excitement. I dragged Y/N to the elevator where I was practically jumping in my spot while we waited for the elevator to go to the bottom floor. Y/N stood in her spot with an emotionless look on her face until we got to the bottom floor. When we got to the door I let go of her hand only to hold open the door for her so I could see her reaction as she stepped outside. Y/N looked at me in confusion and stayed in the middle of the doorway. She didn't ask any questions but I knew she was relying on me to give her an explanation. "C'mon, it's up to you what we do." I smiled.
Y/N took a deep breath before she took a step onto the sidewalk. It was a lot more anticlimactic than I had anticipated so when the taller girl just looked back at me with the same emotionless face I pouted lightly. I sighed and grabbed Y/N's hand again to interlace our fingers together. "Remember, if you feel an attack coming on, just squeeze my hand and we'll handle it okay?" I smiled up at the taller girl who in turn nodded her head. "Alright captain, lead the way." At my words I was finally able to draw a small smile from the girl, the faintest twitch of her lips upward giving me a huge sense of pride also with the feeling of butterflies swarming my stomach. Y/N walked around as if she were a tourist, her head lifted in the air as she looked at anything and everything around her in amazement. Although you couldn't tell by her face I knew it because you could see the wonderment in her eyes. The taller girl's jawline was more prominent in the sun as her neck was still outstretched.
"Are you hungry?" Y/N's quiet voice sounded for the first time since we stepped out of the hospital. My head snapped in her direction at the raspiness that I learned to love to hear. I shrugged my shoulders with a small smile but when Y/N rose her eyebrow I nodded my head bashfully. The taller girl tugged on my hand as we carefully crossed the street where a large breakfast diner stood, it being crowded with larger families. When we walked in and waited to be seated I looked over towards the patient to see her eyes trained on a family, the two siblings running around their parents' feet as the little boy tried to catch his sister. Y/N's eyes held a sense of longing in them but this girl never showed any emotion on her face, everything she was feeling could only be conveyed in her dark eyes. Her lips were slightly parted but as the host came to seat us next she was knocked out of her daze, her mouth closing into a thin line as she blinked several times in quick succession. I followed the host as the taller girl was still out of it, my hand grasping at hers tightly to make sure nothing happened. When we reached the table I made sure Y/N was seated before I sat across from her in the small booth.
The Y/H/C haired girl surveyed her surroundings once more with intense precision as if she were in trouble. I smiled slightly before placing my hand on hers, her gaze retreating to meet my own eyes. "Are you going to choose something to eat?" I asked softly causing the taller girl to nod her head bashfully before she picked up the menu in front of her. I couldn't help but giggle as Y/N blushed an even darker red, lifting the menu to cover her face. Our moment was cut short by the waiter coming to take our orders. His stare was making me uncomfortable but I tried to pay it no mind. He took our drink orders before leaving, Y/N eyeing me tentatively. "What?" I asked quietly. She shrugged her shoulders before looking back at her menu. Soon enough the waiter came back and he looked at Y/N to take her order first before he turned to me with a smirk. "Can I just have two pancakes please."
"Are you sure you don't want anything else, beautiful? I'm sure your friend here won't mind paying extra just so you can have what you want." He threw a side glance in Y/N's direction with the same disgusting smirk on his face. I shook my head as Y/N looked unimpressed. "I can just make your meal on the house if you want." I scooted further into the booth to get away from the creep but my head snapped up as Y/N growled lowly.
"She said that's all she fucking wants you dipshit." She glared harshly at the boy. "Get the fuck out of here and do your fucking job." The waiter spared me one last glance before walking away while matching Y/N's glare. I couldn't help but smile at my knight in shining armor. When I saw her anger only increasing I grabbed her hand over the table which made her turn her gaze towards my own eyes. Her breathing slowed down and her hand stopped twitching under my grasp. The Y/E/C color of her eyes started to become lighter compared to the darkness that occurred when she was angry or in a blackout state. I smiled again but the taller girl only looked down at our intertwined fingers. I was pleasantly surprised when she grabbed my hand only to play with my fingers, a concentrated look on her face. I didn't mind at all, it was endearing to see her calming herself down by focusing on me and nothing else but me. My heartbeat picked up and I knew that even though it's only been a couple days my feelings for the younger girl were more than simply platonic or even professional. I also knew it was wrong for me to have feelings for my patient but I just couldn't help it. There was something about her.
The more I looked at the Y/E/C eyed girl the more she resembled a child in all honesty. She played with my fingers with such wonderment and concentration that she had no regard for anything else going on around her. Her hands grasped at my rings and she slowly slid them off before putting them on once again. I didn't have the heart to stop her until the waiter came back, setting my plate down nicely before he basically dropped Y/N's in front of her. The taller girl slowly raised her head to look at him with her eyes narrowed and the top of her lip slightly raised. She gripped onto my hand harder up until the point where the waiter left our table. She rolled her eyes with a sigh before she went back to playing with my hand, completely dismissing the food sitting next to her arm. "Y/N aren't you going to eat?" I asked. She shrugged her shoulders without meeting my eyes causing me to sigh. "You have to eat. That's why we're here."
