Deranged (Lauren/You)

Chapter 20

Ally had allowed me to take the next three days off to recoup from everything that was going on, but she still didn't know that I had Y/N with me at the same time. We had finished our movie night even though it didn't really consist of watching movies. After Y/N and I had our little heart to heart, we spent most of the rest of the night either cuddling and talking about anything that came to our minds or making out. It hadn't gone past that no matter how much I had wanted it to. I knew Y/N was still very nervous about losing control again to something she claimed was so special that it needed her attention so badly. Either way it made me feel fuzzy inside because she was so worried about the subject. Whether it was the act of sex or just the fact that she didn't want to hurt me, it made me feel much more special than before and allowed me a little bit of insight into Y/N's mind.

There was not much that I could see into how Y/N acts and reacts to events, but at least I was learning more and more about her with each coming day. The next morning I had awoken to the taller girl laying shirtless in my bed still sound asleep. Oh how I could get used to this. A smile subconsciously formed on my face at the sight and I couldn't help but lift my hand and resting atop the middle of Y/N's back. I grazed my fingertips lightly higher up her back until I met her shoulders. I repeated the process several times up and down Y/N's back before angling my finger upwards a bit more until my nail left small red lines in their wake. The taller girl didn't even stir in her sleep yet I watched as her body shifted with every breath that she took. My smile had widened in response before I forced myself to leave the warm confines of the bed and get ready for the day.

Even though I had all this time off, I knew I couldn't spend it all doing nothing. So after a nice shower and changing into some clean clothes I headed to the kitchen to make myself some coffee and a little extra if Y/N decided she wanted some. I texted Dinah to remind her of scheduled Skype session but I knew I wouldn't get a response. It was still early here (Dinah was not a morning person whatsoever) which meant it was even earlier back home so I still had some time before then to do whatever. I decided to grab my laptop from my bag that was still in the living room before I set it down on the dinner table and sat down in front of it. I figured that more research wouldn't hurt and it was the best time to do so now that Y/N was still asleep. I had several psychology textbooks still downloaded onto my laptop from medical school so I pulled the first one that was listed up. I scanned several chapters until I came to a part about schizophrenia.

I looked at the facts that were listed in the book and tried piecing everything together to where it would make more sense. The more I read, the more information came back to me when Ally was first telling me about Y/N, and all of the institutions and families she had to cycle through for most of her life. Genes are also associated with temperament and a number of psychological disorders, such as depression and schizophrenia. In a study of people who were given up for adoption, adoptees whose biological mothers had schizophrenia and who had been raised in a disturbed family environment were much more likely to develop schizophrenia or another psychotic disorder than were any of the other groups in the study:

*Of adoptees whose biological mothers had schizophrenia (high genetic risk) and who were raised in disturbed family environments, 36.8% were likely to develop schizophrenia.

*Of adoptees whose biological mothers had schizophrenia (high genetic risk) and who were raised in healthy family environments, 5.8% were likely to develop schizophrenia.

*Of adoptees with a low genetic risk (whose mothers did not have schizophrenia) and who were raised in disturbed family environments, 5.3% were likely to develop schizophrenia.

*Of adoptees with a low genetic risk (whose mothers did not have schizophrenia) and who were raised in healthy family environments, 4.8% were likely to develop schizophrenia