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"4yrs. ang age gap namin ng girlfriend ko. By that time I met her she was only 15, junior student siya sa Zobel and I just turned 19, 3rd yr. Engineering. Wala talaga akong balak na seryosohin siya. I admit, maganda naman siya and yeah yun lang habol ko sa kanya. Aside from that nasa kanya na yung mga qualities that most of the guys were looking for pero di ko yun nakikita.

Habang kami pa mas lumalala yung night life ko. I seldom text and call her lagi ko lang sinasabi sa kanya na busy ako studying/reviewing/drawing. Parang halos lahat ata na mapuntahan naming bar ng mga tropa ko, di natatpos yung night na yun na wala akong nadadala na babae sa nearest motel or wala akong nagiging ka-momol. I'm a douchebag at its finest.

But everything changed when I saw that sadness on her face. For two consecutive months I fucking forgot our monthsary. I know pinipigil niya lang yung tears niya while telling me na ""It's okay babe. I understand alam ko naman busy ka sa studies mo"" then she handed to me her gift that time. Customized Silver bracelet yun then her name was engraved on it.

That night when I got home. Saka ko lang napansin yung patience niya sa akin, that she's not the ""typical over-reacting,clingy nagging, overly-attached girlfriend"" weeks after that I was supposed to meet someone na chicks pero di ako pumunta. I called my gf that night. Akala ko she's already sleeping kasi past 10 na yun. Niyaya ko siya mag face time. Ang saya-saya niya that night, ang daldal niya.. Maybe she's been longing for that late night talks with me. Nag sorry ako sa kanya for everything then pinakita ko yung right hand ko wearing her bracelet.

Everything began to shift since that night. We became so close and intimate with each other hanggang sa pinakilala na namin yung isa't-isa sa parents namin para maging legal na kami lalo na sa side niya. Nawala night life ko. Umikot na lang yung mundo ko sa kanya at sa studies ko. Yung slowmo scene na akala ko sa movies lang nangyayari, nangyari na sa amin.

Okay na okay na kami sobrang okay na talaga until one time pag-uwi ko nasa condo ko siya, umiiyak.  Inabot niya sa akin yung 2 PT while telling me that she's pregnant. Normal na samin ""yun"". We started doing it nung first anniversary namin. Tho I didn't ask for it but I admit, I really longed for it hanggang sa every monthsary may nangyayari na sa amin and one of it is when I was really caught by the moment and accidentally sa loob ko naiputok. By then on I already prepared myself for the worst-case-that-is-about-to-become-the-best-thing-in-my-life---becoming a father and a husband to the woman of my life.

Hindi ko alam kung bakit pero halos ipagsigawan ko sa floor ng unit namin that I'm going to become a father, I was really overjoyed. I embraced her tightly then hinalikan ko tummy niya. Tumigil siya umiyak she thought kasi na hindi ko pananagutan. Pumunta kami sa OB later and learned that she's already 2weeks pregnant days after that sinabi namin sa parents namin. Di ko alam kung ilang suntok at tadyak nakuha ko sa dad niya at dad ko. At kung ilang sampal sa mom ko at mom niya. I understand naman kasi she's only 17, incoming freshie tapos ganun nangyari dahil sa kapalpakan ko.

Nung manganganak na siya, natapat na hellweek at sobrang sabaw ko haha tangina muntik ako makapunta ng nakaboxers at sweatshirt after having 15 missed calls from them at almost 20 texts na sinasabi na manganganak na daw gf ko. Pero epic kasi I drove all the way to St. Luke's na magkaiba yung pares ng tsinelas ko hahaha.

Now, 2yrs. Old na baby girl namin na sobrang cute mana sa mom niya. Siya naman nag-aaral na and started pursuing her dream to become a lawyer someday. Ako naman, I'm already a licensed Engineer. Mahirap paniwalaan pero totoo, oo Engineer na ako. At siyempre nakaset na Marriage namin :) right after she graduated papakasal na kami.

Many times my faithfulness and committedness were tested pero lagi ko silang iniisip na dalawa. Ayoko mabalewala lahat ng sacrifices nila because of just lust. We already gone this far and yeah I've been thanking God for the whole time kasi He's always providing a way out whenever I'm being tempted. Wew muntik na akong bumigay sa Ex ko during that time.

Sa hinaba haba ng kwento ko, natutunan ko lang na sana matutunan din ng mga young couples. Especially ng mga lalake. Sana kung gaano kabilis at katapang tayo ihiga sila sa kama, ganun din sana tayo kabilis at katapang sa responsibilities kapag nabuntis natin sila. Sana love nga talaga yung nararamdaman natin at hindi lust habang ginagawa natin yun. Para in the end, wala ng batang lalaking walang tatay. Man up and grow up --- that's all we need."

Eng Eng
20**
FEU Institute of Technology (FIT)
FEU Manila