soon.

xlix.

̶ ̶ xlix. COPYCAT.

i'm so in love with you that i find infatuation in places i didn't even know existed within me and it's quite haunting to think you have consumed me whole yet half of you lingers in the depth of my chest and sometimes when i find rest, i can feel you crawling up my rib cage like a jungle gym. you continue to carve your name into my aching bones and even though the summer heat seeps through my window, my heart feels 
frostbitten,
cold,
numb.

i split my wrists open in hope you'd bleed out, but i forget that it's your blood in my veins and i don't want to die but the pain is too much for someone like me to handle.

even with my body six feet under, it'll be your name on the gravestone.