ur sleeping on the couch

[softly] fuck me up, my guy

ive been glancing up at the stair cases lately been drinking a lot of coffee lately been a little to friendly with strangers lately been drawing with knives lately 

i've been crying on my shower floor lately been playing with my own hands lately been craving warmth lately been screaming into pillowcases lately been
i've been
i've been running away from everyone lately been looking for someone to ground me lately been fighting everyone near me lately been angry lately i've been missing you lately i've been hating me lately been glancing at unsugared grapefruit lately been up all night lately been ghosting out lately been crying in classes lately (nobody's seemed to notice, lately) been kissing pill bottles lately been
i've been
i've been listening to you singin lately been deleting your songs off my phone lately been lying about it lately been emptying my heart into swimming pools lately been trying to drown lately been acting all tough lately been cold lately been biting harder than i need to lately been wearing his sweater and wishing it was someone else's lately been rolling nicotine between my lips lately been sad lately been
i've been
i've been hopeless lately been scared lately been scared lately been absolutely fucking terrified lately been stressing over comments lately (did you only love me four years ago or is that just how you're feeling lately?) been crying over spilled bleach lately been

i've been good lately, thank you. how are you doing?