Loving in Colour (Min Yoongi x Reader)

~ Twenty : Just Let It Out ~

I took a blanket from Jimin and set up the sofa ready for me to lay down. I didn't know why but I felt like Yoongi did not want my presence. Is this the end? But it hasn't even begun? I haven't had the chance to call him mine yet and already he is gone. 

"Stop beating yourself up about it, I promise I will help you however I can ok? And before you start refusing, it's what friends do." He struggles with the word friend, but it puts a small smile on my face. I am thankful to have him, but I don't think there is anything he can do to make me feel any better to be honest. 

"Yeah, maybe I just need to sleep on it..." I say quietly, and Jimin leans down and kisses the top of my head.

"Sleep well, if you feel uncomfortable just wake me up you can have my bed, I'll take the sofa," he reminds me, a small smile on his face.

"She won't be staying on the sofa anyways, come on Y/N," Yoongi suddenly appears, his hand reaching out for mine. Jimin leaves the room, looking back at me one more time before disappearing up the stairs. "Sorry, it just keeps going through my head." Yoongi scratches the back of my head as he leads me to his room. "I see Jimin let you borrow some clothes..." 

"Well yeah you weren't there and I didn't want to disturb you and-"

"It's okaii, but please," he hands me some of his clothes, which I take as I walk to the bathroom to change. He doesn't seem to be too thrown off, maybe he thinks it's a scam? A really bad prank? I don't know...

"Better?" I almost whisper, as I walk out of the bathroom and see Yoongi in his bed on his phone. His eyes are glued to his screen, he had no idea I said anything or that I was in the room. "Better?" I ask louder this time. His head snaps in my direction and he puts his phone down, nodding his head. I stand there awkwardly, not knowing what to do with myself. A part of me just wants to find a corner and cry myself to sleep tonight, but another wants me to just stay with Yoongi. 

"You can come here you know..." he awkwardly pats the bed, and I follow his command. 

"Did you message her?" I say without thinking as I sit down, mentally scolding myself for asking him this question. It's non of my business right?

"Yeah, I did." He says, and I swear I heard my own heart crack a slight bit. "It was only right to know more from her side." 

"You don't need to explain yourself to me." I say bluntly, getting under the covers and facing away from him. Yoongi lets out a loud sighs before he back hugs me, snuggling into my hair and taking in my scent. 

"Don't get mad Y/N..." He pulls me close to him. "You know you agree with me that it was fair to see what more she had to say." He adds, knowing that he is right. Of course I know it was only fair to also contact her and see if what she said was true or not, but god knows, she could just be lying through her teeth. 

"Hmmm," I don't feel like talking, I feel like if I open my mouth I will cry. 

"Let's sleep okaii?" He kisses my neck, making me stiffen on the spot. Yoongi takes this as an opportunity and continues doing so. I close my eyes as I feel some stress starting to go away under Yoongi's touch. "Y/N, you're so cute when you're jealous." He smirks against my skin, turning me around so I was laying on my back, while he hovered over me. My breathing got harder with him in this position. 

"Not jealous..." I whisper, looking up into his eyes, which are filled with lust. 

"Oh so I can go call her? She said she missed my voice," he starts to get up and I just stare at him in disbelief. Was he expecting a reaction? Well he's gonna get one. 

"So she flirts with you already and you let it? Let me guess, next you're going to meet her. But don't worry, Y/N will get over herself like she always does right?" I sit up and get out of his bed.

"Y/N what the hell? I was joking... sort of..." he stays in bed looking at me. 

"Are you serious right now?" I look at him in disbelief while he looks down. So all this time he has been shut in his room he has been messaging her? Talking with her? 

"Y/N!" Yoongi shouts my name as tears spring in my eyes and I walk out of his room, slamming the door shut and walking out of the dorm. I let my feet carry me where ever they wanted, ending up on a park bench. I hug my figure closer as I realize I am only wearing Yoongi's shirt and trackies. I finally let my emotions flow from me, and fully break down.

I don't attempt to stop my tears, I don't attempt to stay quiet. I just let it out. 

"Y/N! Oh Y/N! I am so sorry!" I look up to find Y/B/F standing by the bench, a hoodie in hand. 

"W-what? H-how?" I question.

"Yoongi called me, saying he's not the one you'd want to see so... he also explained as I was searching for you... I only hang up when I found you." She says, and without another word she pulls the hoodie over my head then sat next to me and put my head on her shoulder. "Just let it out," she says, and that's exactly what I do. I cry until there is nothing left to cry, still feeling crap about myself. About the fact that I have been the push over my whole life, and the fact that he has been nothing but an ass and I still let him in and trusted him. 

I think I have fallen deep in love with him, and there's no turning back...

A/N
So, this is happening.