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Sorry Again

Ok so you came to my story for a specific reason, Vanosscrew x Reader.

I'm sorry if you're, mad at me for making these A/n.

Or for hell, making another one of these sad thing again.

Think I'm pathetic and and attention seeker, right?

But I really wanted to talk about this for so long after the incident.

I don't enjoy the crew anymore, I don't like them.

Don't, just don't get mad.

I wanted to go on because I was happy, YOU GUYS loved my story!

I was happy

Until everything came down hill

So I made a chapter which addressed something personal.

I didn't make it for attention at all, like I made it because you guys cared for me.

You seemed like a family I never had, the one I needed.

I cried, I actually did when I recovered to find all the things you guys posted, I felt loved.

I wanted to continue, I wanted to be strong, see the word "wanted".

I didn't want to, inside I wanted to go lock myself in the bathroom and cry and never come out, but I didn't.

This was when I really stopped trying, watching the crew in general.

I really forced myself to do it but I just wanted to do it for all of you, maybe I pushed myself to hard?

I, I don't know.

I will always feel alone

I will never get help

I will always be an outsider

I will be gone one day and make everyone happy

Maybe I just lost a battle and I'm defeated for good

Sorry for always being depressing and sad 😔 I wish I really wish I could just be happy

But, for You, reader. Thank you, you came and read my story because you liked it.

16k, for all you out there, I love you.

Thank you