I Wait~ Wonpil Day6

#17

I survived the meeting with the management team, even though I was really nervous and awkward.
They even praised me on my work, and the one in charge of band practice, invited me to come watch some day.
I guess I had done some parts of my job right. They even told me that thanks to me, Day6 would have their first full album already.
There was also talk about some projects called every day 6.
I was really exited about it all.
But when I got out of the meeting room, I remembered what had happened earlier, and I felt like the worst person ever.

Maybe I shouldn't tell Wonpil what happened. No. I have to.
Maybe not today.
Maybe.. I could get drunk, and then call him.
Good idea.
No it's not.
I should just stop having conversations in my head.

I went back to my office, and finished my reports. It was already getting late, and it was dark outside. I guess I could go home now. I gathered my stuff, and turned of the lights. I exited my office, and locked the door.
I knew the boys would be back from their live now, and I didn't want to meet them. I couldn't see Wonpil right now.

I quickly walked to the stairs, and went down to the lobby. Almost out. Just a few more steps..
- Siyeon?
Someone said. Damn it. I turned around to see Chan. I just looked at him, and then kept walking.
Suddenly he pulled my arm so that I would stop.
- I don't want to talk right now.
I said, and kept walking.
- please wait..
He said. I was about to turn around to tell him that I had to go, when 5 familiar people entered the lobby from the entrance.
Oh no... Wonpil made eye contact.
Oh god no. I had to get away.

- hello Siyeon!
Sungjin said.
- Uhh... goodnight.
I said, and ran outside. Luckily Jun was already waiting for me in his car.
Goodnight? Why the hell did I say that?
I got in the car, and told Jun to drive. I just wanted to go home and hide under my bed forever.
- is something wrong?
Jun asked me. I couldn't tell him either.
- no..
I answered.
- then why are you hitting your head on the window?

•Wonpil's POV•
- did she just say goodnight?
Sungjin said, and laughed.
I wasn't amused. Even though it was kind of cute. But she left right away. Like a guilty person.
- that's the guy..
Jae suddenly whispered in my ear.
I looked over to the only person except my group in the lobby.
Was this guy really... something to Siyeon?
It was all still so hard to believe. But I saw him touching her arm just as we entered...
- who is he?
I asked Jae.
- a stray kids trainee I think..
He answered.

- why are you guys whispering?
Sungjin asked us.
- we can literally still hear you.
Brian added.
- why are you talking about a trainee?
Sungjin asked us.
I couldn't tell him. Only Brian and Jae knew.
- no reason.
I answered.
- Wonpil just said he was handsome.
Jae said, and everyone laughed.
At least they didn't suspect anything.

-I'm going to bed.
I told the guys, and left them. I wasn't really tired, and it was only 8 PM.
But I would probably fall asleep after crying for a while.

• Siyeon's POV•

When we got home, Jun wanted to make dinner.
- can you make the kimbap?
He asked me.
- sure.
I said, and he placed the ingredients on the counter.

I started cutting the ingredients, while I was thinking about Wonpil. I can't tell him..
what if he breaks up with me. And hate me. I would die.
- Siyeon what the hell! Your hand!
Jun suddenly said.
I looked at my hand. I had cut it again.
The pain hit me, and it hurt pretty bad. Did I do it on purpose again? I was looking at the knife the whole time.
- ops?
I said.
- I'll get a bandaid.
Jun said, and disappeared from the kitchen. I couldn't stop looking at the knife. It hurt a lot. But it made me only think about the pain.

After we ate, we watched a movie. Obviously I couldn't focus.
- ok seriously. What's wrong?
Jun asked me.
- what?
I asked him.
- you look sad.
He answered.
- my hand still hurts.
I said, and Jun just nodded and kept watching the movie.

Just as the movie was done, someone called me. It was him..
- aren't you going to answer that?
Jun asked me.
- uh.. yeah.
I said, and went to the hallway to answer the call.
- h..hello?
I said, my voice almost cracking.
- Siyeon.. you just left without greeting me.
Wonpil said.
How was I going to explain that? I knew I acted weird earlier.
- I'm sorry, I was feeling... sick.
I answered.
- are you ok now?
He asked me.
- yes.
I answered.
- I want to talk to you, could you meet me before I'm having band practice tomorrow?
He asked me.
- I can't, I'm sick.
I said.
- didn't you just say you were ok?
He asked me.
Damn it.
- oh yeah.. I..I mean I have the day off tomorrow.
I answered.
- ok. I was just wondering if you...
He started saying, but I interrupted him.
- I have to go now.
I said, and hung up.
I couldn't talk to him. I felt so bad for what had happened today.
I shouldn't have so nice to Chan. It was all my fault. Maybe I gave him the impression that I was interested in him.

I decided to go to my room, so I said goodnight to Jun. I wasn't even tired.
Maybe I could cry myself to sleep.