Grieving Hearts [Completed]

48- bleeding raw.

Agustin's pov.......

I raked a hand through my hair in frustration. How the fuck I didn't figure it out before that Jacob was talking about Onika in that interview, he had been in love with her all this time right under my nose and I never for once considered that he secretly loves my wife, that motherfucker, this runs deeper then I thought. I assumed he must be talking about one of his past flings. Christ, how wrong was I.

The worst part is I think Onika has a soft corner for him as well, I hope it's just that and nothing more. Fucks this. He needs to stay away from her, or else he will pay dearly. I am already walking on thin ice and the last thing I want is for Jacob to jeopardize whatever little chance I may have with Onika.

How I want to just fire him, but I know it won't sit well with Onika.

I was brought out of my reverie by a knock on the door.

"who is it?" I asked in an irritated voice. This Office won't even let me grieve in peace.

"It's me, Onika," came Onika's soft, angelic voice.

Fuck. I immediately hide her file in the drawer, yes I have brought her file to Office, I just can't keep my mind away from it, it's like I want to read it in one go and at the same time I don't even have the courage to read her single entry without feeling my heart being torn in two.

I immediately straightened up and called her in.

"Please come and sit" I said, as soon as she entered.

"So, to what do I owe being blessed by your presence," I said teasingly with a little smile.

Instead of answering, She just kept staring at me as if I have grown two heads.

"What's the matter?" She asked, her eyes still looking at me with that soul reading gaze. My heart picked a pace, for a moment I thought she had seen the file, but that is not possible I tried to reason, and asked," nothing, why do you ask?"

"Your eyes are bloodshot, you have developed bags under your eyes overnight, it looks like you haven't slept in ages! Are you sick or something?" She asked, frowning at me, her voice laced with concern.

Right at this moment, with concern for me in her eyes, she is looking so beautiful that I just want to kiss her senseless. This is the nearest thing to affection I have got from her in ages.

"Agustin, I am talking to you." She said, waving a hand infront of me, that brought me out of my trance.

"No, no I am perfectly fine...I just didn't sleep well beacuse of a little...headache." Heartache instead and a lot of it, I said silently.

"You want to take the day off?" She asked, wriggling her eyebrows suggestively. Plain adorable, is what she is. Okay, I need to control this.

"No, I am fine now, ..." She cut me off.

"You don't look fine to me, anyway a little rest won't harm.." She tried again.

"Onika I am okay, really and one more time you insist, I will get the false Idea that you still care for me."

She frowned at me.

"But I do care for you." She said without missing a beat, and I felt my heart jump out of my cage.

"It's just not in the way you think, I only care for you as much I will care for any other human being, nothing more nothing less," she added sternly looking in my eyes, showing me that she ment every word.

I felt my heart sink at her words, if she would have denied that she cares for me it would have been easier, because I know that would be a lie, but saying she cares for me nothing more than any other person hurts way more, but can I blame her. It's more than I can ask for that she still cares atleast as much she will care for any other human being, even after I have been anything but humane to her.