ANDY’S POV
I walked out of the doctor’s office feeling physically sick. I finally did what Bradie and Shaun wanted me to. I chatted to the doctor about my options. Apparently I have glioblastoma multiforme, which is the most deadly of all the cancers. It’s so spread out like a tree’s branches; you can’t just take it out without destroying the brain. It’s that bad and I can’t even pronounce it! The doctor told me that the survival rate is zero, so I figured to not go with treatment. He tried to persuade me to at least think about some of the treatments, but I thought what’s the point in dishing out all that money? I’m just going to die anyway.
I plan on telling my family and friends really soon though, I mean who knows? I could drop off the perch in a week’s time. He said it’d be within the next two months. Meaning it’d be before or in March, the month we planned on releasing our third album. I wonder what’s gonna happen with the band now. Will Bradie and Shaun just find a replacement or give up? I wouldn’t hold anything against them if they did want to replace me. I was just the bassist. I barely did any work, Shaun and Bradie wrote the music. I just did what I was told.
Tears started falling down my pale face as I started the engine of my car. Now I had to go home and tell my step-brother the bad news. I wiped the tears away with the back of my hand; I just have to pretend I’m okay with it.
BRADIE’S POV
I paced around the house frantically. I woke up an hour ago finding a note from Andy on my door saying that he was going to see a doctor today. God, I wish he had’ve woken me up and let me come. I hate the thought of him alone getting all this information thrown in his face and not knowing what to do with it.
I started walking back to my room when I heard the front door open and close quietly. I sprinted to the door to find Andy standing there silently staring at me. He looked horrible, skin clammy, eyes bloodshot like he hadn’t slept in a week. I slowly stepped towards him.
“Andy?” I said trying to get his attention, “how’d it go?”
“Good,” he answered with no emotion and began walking towards his room.
He looked like a zombie. I was afraid to interact with him.
I followed him to his room and found him on his bed, I sat beside him.
“What did the doctor say?” I asked concerned.
He just sat there silently, his head slumped forward. I was getting pretty annoyed that I wasn’t getting answers. But, I can’t force it out in his fragile state.
“Andy, just please tell me what they said,” I pleaded with him lifting his head up and his eyes met mine, I could tell he was broken inside. Those eyes were windows to his soul and they just spoke ‘I’m dead’.
“I have gl…gliob,” I could tell he had trouble pronouncing it.
“It doesn’t matter about the name, okay,” I assured him.
“I’m gonna die within two months,” he said under his breath.
“What?” I questioned not sure if I had heard him right.
“I’m gonna die within two months,” he repeated a little more loudly.
I started to hear my heart beat in my ears and my throat felt like I had swallowed a massive pill. Did I hear him right?
“Wha…what about treatment?” I asked.
“The survival rate is zero, so,” he didn’t need to finish, I knew what he meant. There really isn’t much point in getting treated when you’re going to die anyway.
“I can’t lose you,” I said getting teary eyed.
“Bradie, it’ll be okay,” he said calmly.
“How?” I questioned getting angry, “you’re gonna die and nothing can be done about it!”
I instantly felt bad when I saw his face. I shouldn’t be shouting at him, it’s not his fault. Stupid fucking cancer can go get AIDS for all I care.
“I’m sorry,” I apologised, “I’m just…”
“I know,” he cut me off.
“How can you not be upset and cry about this?” I asked him wiping tears from my face.
“What do you think I did as soon as I found out?” he replied.
I embraced him tightly, not ever wanting to let go.
“I love you,” he mumbled into my shoulder.
“I love you too,” I murmured into his ear.
I can’t lose my brother, I just can’t…
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The Back Of My Head
FanfictionBradie's hiding something, something that will dramatically change his and everyone elses lives around him. Shaun's especially. And why does Shaun's behaviour bother Andy so much?