Forever & Always

Chapter 18

Chapter 18

-Miracle Baby.-

"Thank you, London! You have been great!" Liam shouted into the mic, the fans responded with hysteric screaming.

"Every single one of you!" Harry added, causing the crowd to only grow crazier.

"Thank you for all your support, we love you all so very much!" Niall shouted with a laugh.

"What they said!" Louis shouted, earning a few laughs.

I watched them run around the stage, yelling out how happy and grateful they were for everything. I couldn't help but smile. They seemed so happy. The smile on their faces were so genuine. The gleam in their eyes was so precious. My hands were crossed over my stomach.

These passed few days were pretty tough. Not meaning that me and Louis argued or anything. It was more of me being paranoid. If Louis would wrap his arm around my waist, I'd jump the second I felt his hand on my stomach. Then there was the whole sex thing. That was a whole different dilemma. The first night, I got away with it because I claimed I was too tired. The night in Manchester, there was no avoiding that. Though he did become aggravated when I told him to go nice and slow. That boy is just so extravagant.

There was nothing about sex that would harm the baby. My doctor had told me that. But I still felt like it could. Just like my doctor told me before, a pregnancy was unlikely for me. So this was my little miracle baby. I never thought I'd grow to love something so much in so little time. I felt so overprotective about this unborn child that it scared me. It also pained me to keep a secret so big from Louis. But I just couldn't tell him.

Not yet.

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I sat between Louis' legs, my back against his chest as I began playing with his fingers. We were currently in the tour bus. The boys had agreed on me and Louis sharing the bedroom, given I couldn't sleep in the bunk with him.

Our hands intertwined and rested on my stomach. I took this as a time to speak up. "Louis?"

"Yeah?" He replied, his voice quiet and low.

"When do you think we'll start a family of our own?" I asked, my voice barely above a whisper.

He sighed and I felt him shrug. "We aren't ready, babe. I've been thinking loads about it, believe me, I have. But the more I thought, the more I realized that we are just too young. I have the rest of the tour this year, then the tour next year. I'd be too busy and I wouldn't be able to be there. And we'd see each other a lot less. Just think about it. Where would you be right now if we had a baby? At home. And I'd be here. I don't think that's fair."

"Well we could always visit." I whispered. My eyes stung with tears that threatened to slip because what he said was really hurting me.

"Of course you could, but where would the baby be? In a basinet next to the bed? What about the bottles and everything?" He sighed as he stopped himself. "I just don't think it would work at this time. Not while we're so young and busy."

I nodded. He had a point. But what was I going to do now? There was nothing I could do. I was already pregnant and already halfway through the pregnancy. That in itself scared me. I shifted in Louis' arms, closing my eyes.

"Why do you ask?" Louis whispered and rubbed the back of my hand with his thumb.

I shrugged. "Just curious."

I did my best not to show how hurt I felt or that I was on the verge of tears. My eyes remained shut. It wasn't until I felt the familiar fluttering movement in my stomach that my eyes snapped open.