Yeah, I'd rather be a lover than a fighter
'Cause all my life, I've been fighting
Never felt a feeling of comfort
All this time, I've been hiding
And I never had someone to call my own, oh nah
I'm so used to sharing
Love only left me alone
But I'm at one with the silence
I sat on my bed, knees drawn to my chest, staring across the room at the blank lilac wall. I kept listening to "Silence" over and over; I couldn't seem to change it. It was like I wanted to, but every time I decided I would, I lost my nerve. I didn't deserve to listen to anything else.
I found peace in your violence
Can't show me there's no point in trying
I'm at one, and I've been quiet for so long
I found peace in your violence
Can't show me there's no point in trying
I'm at one, and I've been silent for too long
I was just sitting there, empty, shattered, cut into pieces. Maybe I would change the song... Eventually.
But in the meantime...
I've been quiet for too long
I've been quiet for too long
I found peace in your violence
Can't show me there's no point in trying
I'm at one, and I've been quiet for too long
I'm in need of a savior, but I'm not asking for favors
My whole life, I've felt like a burden
I think too much, and I hate it
I'm so used to being in the wrong, I'm tired of caring
Loving never gave me a home, so I'll sit here in the silence
I found peace in your violence
Can't show me there's no point in trying
I'm at one, and I've been quiet for too long
I found peace in your violence
Can't show me there's no point in trying
I'm at one, and I've been silent for too long
I've been quiet for too long
I've been quiet for too long
I found peace in your violence
Can't show me there's no point in trying
I'm at one, and I've been quiet for too long
I checked my phone, realizing I'd been sitting in the same position for three hours, with Silence on the whole time. That must be a new personal best, but this situation with Demi had me all messed up. I mean, I hadn't even taken my makeup off or changed clothes. And that was something I always did, no matter how sad or sick I was.
With a tap of the screen, I changed the song.
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Tell Me You Love Me // Demi Lovato // 1
Fanfiction// BOOK ONE // Demi Lovato and I were best friends for years, until her addiction tore us apart. I never knew what happened to make her stop talking to me and it's been years since we've spoken, but I haven't forgotten about her. And during that ti...
