Untold Verses (Poetry and Art Book)

Whats It Like

"What's it like"
She said
As I lay in bed
"What's it like being you"
"I wish I knew"
Being me
You see
Isn't the easiest thing
It's constant over thinking
Like this boat called life is sinking
It's staring at empty walls
Walking in dark halls
It's sitting with your face in your hands
Dreaming of distant lands
Anywhere but here
Nowhere near
It's begging to not be alone
While hoping to be alone
Alone with someone
It's not sending a text for five days
Because you know human interaction is a maze
You sit in bed from 12am to 6am hoping for sleep
Begging for things to change
You flip the page
And draw something new
Because you always knew
Escaping through art was the only way to get away
Emptying your mind was the only way
To feel human again
Being me is sitting in the shower
With the water all the way to make you cower
To burn my skin and make me feel again
But let me tell you
I've never forgotten a name or a face
Never left no memory in a place
I've never forgotten the little details
Like someone's pigtails
I never forgotten what a smile looked like
What it's like to ride a bike
I could kiss you on a Tuesday
And remember what your hands did by Friday
I could give the world
Just to see you smile
Make the dark seem bright
Yet
Being me
Is still not being enough
Being me
Is being told everything wrong
But never what's right
Being me
Is being alone
Even though I never was