5. He Can Feel More Than Anyone Else I Know

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"I HOPE I GET THE DEAL!" I squeal as soon as we leave the building.

"You definitely did! You killed it," Kara consoles me. I smile at her. I would've even gotten this audition without her. All that's left is to hope.

I pray to God that Jonah votes in my favor. If he doesn't, my chances are greatly slimmed. They'll trust someone who's made it in the music industry a lot. I'm just very scared. I mean, I didn't exactly leave things on good terms with Jonah last time I saw him. He said he'll remain unbiased, so I trust him. I didn't sing the song I wrote about him anyways.

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Finding myself unable to sleep, I decide to text someone and chat. Jack is the first one I see so I text him.

Bambi 🦌 : u up?

Jack🍜: yeah
Jack🍜: I'm usually up for another hour

Bambi🦌: but it's almost midnight

Jack🍜: yup, i know

Bambi🦌: I can't sleep

Jack🍜: worried about your audition?
Jack🍜: Jonah told me about it
Jack🍜: you shouldn't worry

Bambi🦌: what'd he say?!

Jack🍜: he said the song was good and vocals were on point
Jack🍜: and the others loved you

Bambi🦌: oh thank god
Bambi🦌: I thought he would've hated me and tried to make them hate me too

Jack🍜: why?

Bambi🦌: because of how I left

Jack🍜: he also had blame in that but
Jack🍜: Jonah is really good at blocking out emotion
Jack🍜: he can feel more than anyone else I know
Jack🍜: but he can also shut it off like a light switch
Jack🍜: who knows how long he can keep those emotions out

Bambi🦌: oh
Bambi🦌: I think I'm gonna sleep now
Bambi🦌: thanks Jack

Jack🍜: no problem and good night

I lay in bed, facing the ceiling. My thoughts were racing. "He can shut it off like a light switch who knows how long he can keep those emotions out" the words flash in front of my eyes. Could he have shut off everything when I cut him off? And what about "he also had blame in that"? Did he do the same thing? God, everything is so confusing and I came here less than a week ago. Maybe I should've just stayed back.

My mind was running back and forth. It was a miracle that the next thing I noticed was the soft light filtering through my cream colored blinds.

I jump out of bed, remembering I'll hear back from them today. I think I'm going to hear a yes thanks to what Jack told me but I'm not sure. Can't be too sure about anything. They'll likely turn on you and betray you and your memory. I slowly sink back into bed, pulled down by sad thoughts.

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