Half a heart(Harry Styles)

Chapter-7 cant run away

Tessa

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  Well it's been a week since all the trouble and I feel like I'm just running away from everything the date with Ryder was awful he insulted me and then 'accedently' pushed me into the fountain when we were kissing so I was the laughing stock for a few days I was humiliated and maybe Harry was right I was getting a taste of my own medicine and my state consisted of less sleep and cuts on my left wrists plus two new ones from today.

I was in gray leggings with black riding boots and a long sleeve cream  wool sweater and my wavy lilac hair down I sat down at my balcony with my guitar and my phone I logged into twitter and saw a picture of Harry and Kendall Yup his new girlfriend smiling holding hands Oh and look more hate tears welded in my eyes

and I strummed at my guitar chords

Help, I have done it again

I have been here many times before

Hurt myself again today

And the worst part is there's no one else to blame

Be my friend

Hold me, wrap me up

Unfold me

I am small and needy

Warm me up

And breathe me

Ouch I have lost myself again

Lost myself and I am nowhere to be found,

Yeah I think that I might break

I've lost myself again and I feel unsafe

Be my friend

Hold me, wrap me up

Unfold me

I am small and needy

Warm me up

And breathe me

Be my friend

Hold me, wrap me up

Unfold me

I am small and needy

Warm me up

And breathe me

at the end tears were spilling down my face and I was sobbing No one understood and as I stood up my wrist hit the side of the door and I felt the cut open and blood fall I gasped as the doorbell rung I grabbed my suitcase and ran out and into the tour bus I called dibs on the top bunk bed underneath Harry's which was the only one left and into the medium sized restroom and wrapped up my wound again and then went out "Hey boys sorry had to use the loo"I said jumping onto the couch "Tessa  we missed you "Nialler yelled jumping on me I groaned slightly "Whoa there Ni have you gained a few pounds "I joked he gasped and rolled off me going across the room and huffing I giggled and shook my head I looked at Harry and he just rolled his eyes at me I sighed okay

Everyone was knackered well except me I just couldn't go to sleep I got off my bunk and walked to the couch and sat down rapping my arms around my legs and looking out the window I got my phone and logged on to twitter only to come face to face with me drenched and makeup smeared I sighed and then That's when I broke with the hate I put my hands over my face and sobbed but not just normal sobbing the kind where you can't catch your breath and then I jumped and ran to the restroom I locked the door and slid down to the ground with the sharp razor in my hand I gripped it as I sobbed where was my best friend when I needed him?Huh?