Half a heart(Harry Styles)

Chapter 22

  I woke up on a couch shooting straight up looking around and then the memories came back and I felt like I was going to scream I shooked my head and then I ran out expecting to just go out to be alone but no it was the paps, I held my hands to my face " Have you seen the videos" one of them yelled 'what video' " Move the fuck out of my way I don't fucking care anymore you could either Love me or Hate me and that's goes to all you fuckers who are trying to meddile in my life it's my life I can do what I want" I spat and then shouted at the end with that they cleared a way out for me and then I ran.

 I was now in my room fully showered with a long gray sweater on, black leggings and marron boots with gray bunched up socks( Outfit on side>>>>>>>>) I was curled up in a ball how could I have confessed all that shit to Harry I groaned when my phone rang it was a message from management and so I procedded to walk towards my car I was not in a mood to walk today.

I made it and I was soon seated inside with the boys and they got straight to it showing me a video of me downing down a bottle of tequilla I cringed of course " Hey in my ofense I was told to go out and get noticed which is what I did" I spat.

 Steve stood up and walked towards me doing circles around me that it made me dizzy " You'r nothing but a drunk and a whore that's what your looking like right now" he spat in my face I felt a lump rise 'he's right just litsen to him '

'end it all' voices whispered I shook my head " No" I shouted which startled the boys for some reason they were extremly quiet which freaked me out somethings not right. " I'm not what you say I am ok you made me like this" I whispered at the end. soon enough the meeting was over " Ummm Tessa can we talk to you " said Liam looking at me with hurt eyes I nodded and smiled.

 " Look WE all think that it's best if we don't have any contact between us for the best of One Direction " Zayn said I looked at them shocked " but I... I can change" I said my voice cracking

Liam shook his head " No your a bad influence what Steve said is true your just bad your like poison you kill everything you touch don't contact us anymore Tessa" Liam said sternley with that they walked away " Don't leave me ........ Louis" I cried as my voice cracked he looked back but then left me alone. I looked around the place and then I walked up to my own apartment above SYSCO.

 I walked in and looked around my untouched apartment in many many months I remember seeing Harry here. I got my laptop and opened it I had to say goodbye but I knew that in two weeks it was going to be the end of everything finally at peace away from everything.

  " I remember seeing you here the first time since you left and the truth was I was so happy to see you again I never hated you haz" I said looking into the camera chuckling I shook my head " The truth is I was happy to know I was finally going to have someone to help get through this but you believed it to you were just like all of them" I said and I spoke and spoke and well spoke I made a new video and this time it was a song that when they found this they were going to put it out this would be the last of Tessa and well my brother I'll just go vist him before my deadline.

" when I.... when I was on stage and I was thinking of I felt like I... I know I know him though and I know his heart and I know what he wouldn't do to hurt me but I didn't realise that I was feeling so confident and feeling so great about myself and then it just be completly shattered by one thing by something so stupid but then he'd he made me feel crazy made me feel like it's my fault I was in pain" I said sobbing now and I sang playing the beat I had created on my laptop and the chours so it sounded perfect.

You got me sippin' on something
I can't compare to nothing
I've ever known, I'm hoping
That after this fever I'll survive
I know I'm acting a bit crazy
Strung out, a little bit hazy
Hand over heart, I'm praying
That I'm gonna make it out alive

The bed's getting cold and you're not here
The future that we hold is so unclear
But I'm not alive until you call
And I'll bet the odds against it all
Save your advice 'cause I won't hear
You might be right but I don't care
There's a million reasons why I should give you up
But the heart wants what it wants

You got me scattered in pieces
Shining like stars and screaming
Lightening me up like Venus
But then you disappear and make me wait
And every second's like torture
Hell over trip, no more so
Finding a way to let go
Baby baby no I can't escape

Source: http://www.directlyrics.com/selena-gomez-the-heart-wants-what-it-wants-lyrics.html

You got me sippin' on something
I can't compare to nothing
I've ever known, I'm hoping
That after this fever I'll survive
I know I'm acting a bit crazy
Strung out, a little bit hazy
Hand over heart, I'm praying
That I'm gonna make it out alive

The bed's getting cold and you're not here
The future that we hold is so unclear
But I'm not alive until you call
And I'll bet the odds against it all
Save your advice 'cause I won't hear
You might be right but I don't care
There's a million reasons why I should give you up
But the heart wants what it wants

You got me scattered in pieces
Shining like stars and screaming
Lightening me up like Venus
But then you disappear and make me wait
And every second's like torture
Hell over trip, no more so
Finding a way to let go
Baby baby no I can't escape

Source: http://www.directlyrics.com/selena-gomez-the-heart-wants-what-it-wants-lyrics.html

You got me sipping on something
I can't compare to nothing
I bet for known I'm hoping
That after this fever I'll survive
I know I'm acting a bit crazy
Strung out, a little bit hazy
Hand over heart, I'm praying
That I'm gonna make it out alive

 
The bed's getting cold and you're not here
The future that we hold is so unclear
But I'm not alive until you call
And I'll bet the odds against it all
Save your advice 'cause I won't hear
You might me right but I don't care
There's a million reasons why I should give you up
But the heart wants what it wants

 
You got me scattered in pieces
Shining like stars and screaming
Lightening me up like Venus
But then you disappear and make me wait
And every second's like torture
Hell over trip, no more so
Finding a way to let go
Baby baby no I can't escape

 
The bed's getting cold and you're not here
The future that we hold is so unclear
But I'm not alive until you call
And I'll bet the odds against it all
Save your advice 'cause I won't hear
You might me right but I don't care
There's a million reasons why I should give you up
But the heart wants what it wants

This is a modern fairy-tale
No happy endings
No winning ourselves
But I can't imagine a life without
Breathless moments
Breaking me down

 
The bed's getting cold and you're not here
The future that we hold is so unclear
But I'm not alive until you call
And I'll bet the odds against it all
Save your advice 'cause I won't hear
You might me right but I don't care
There's a million reasons why I should give you up
But the heart wants what it wants

The heart wants what it wants baby

A/N

 WOW this is almost over haha I'm feeling excited I mean my first almost finished book and well I'll be updating soon Luv you

You got me sippin' on something
I can't compare to nothing
I've ever known, I'm hoping
That after this fever I'll survive
I know I'm acting a bit crazy
Strung out, a little bit hazy
Hand over heart, I'm praying
That I'm gonna make it out alive

The bed's getting cold and you're not here
The future that we hold is so unclear
But I'm not alive until you call
And I'll bet the odds against it all
Save your advice 'cause I won't hear
You might be right but I don't care
There's a million reasons why I should give you up
But the heart wants what it wants

You got me scattered in pieces
Shining like stars and screaming
Lightening me up like Venus
But then you disappear and make me wait
And every second's like torture
Hell over trip, no more so
Finding a way to let go
Baby baby no I can't escape

Source: http://www.directlyrics.com/selena-gomez-the-heart-wants-what-it-wants-lyrics.html