Mistakes Made & Lessons Learned (Book #1)

Chapter 20

~*Jade Pov*~

I sat with my back against my room door crying. My knees were up to my chest and my head was hung low. I been so out of it that I won't let no one in.

It has been a month since Layla told everyone my secret and since we last seen her. She only talk to Lani on the phone but we don't know where she at. Mama Lynn going crazy and so am I for other reasons .

The day that I had given Drew my virginity, I got pregnant. I had found out a month after Valentine's day and I had this whole surprise planned out on me telling him. I had an appointment to make sure everything was going okay when my doctor say I had a silent miscarriage.

It was the kind of miscarriage that happened without you knowing it because you don't feel any pain or bleeding. While I was getting the ultrasound my doctor said something about an empty pregnancy sac. Basically my baby started to develop then just stopped. I was heart broken at the moment and realized that it wasn't meant to be. I had to undergo an ERPC to get rid of the empty sac and everything else.

The day I had the surgery I told Drew I was in school and was studying at the library after my last class. When the surgery was over I came home and just cried myself to sleep. I was sad for a week but then I told Lani and Layla was sitting right there. Layla said she had one too but she was bleeding and cramping before she went to the ER with this girl she keep talking about.

   "JJ just open the door for me." I heard Drew say through the door.

   "No." I said so low I barely heard myself.

   "I'm not mad at you."

I got up and kicked the door.

   "Back the fuck up and leave me alone!" I yelled then laid on my bed.

I was alone for about an hour when my room door opened. I continued to fake sleep as Drew got in the bed with me after he kicked off his shoes. He wrapped his arms around me and laid his head on top of mine.

   "I love you Jade."

My heartbeat started racing because he never told me that before. I closed my eyes tighter to stop the tears from falling.

   "I love you too Drew." I said as I turned to face him.

   "I knew you wasn't sleep but I need for you to talk to me. You can't keep all of this in because its only gon' bring you down."

   "I know and I haven't kept it in. I told Lani and I got over it but when Layla brought it up again, all the hurt came back."

   "Was you even gon' tell me you was pregnant?"

   "Of course I was. I wouldn't keep that from you but I didn't want to hurt your feelings by saying I lost it. I feel as though if I would've told you sooner than I would still be pregnant." I said then the first tear fell.

   "Don't say that Jade. Things happen for a reason, plus we have our whole lives to try again."

   "But are you willing to try our whole life?"

   "For you, yeah I will try my whole life. I don't care if we have to try everyday on the hour five years from now, I want YOU to have my children." He said then kissed my forehead.

   "Well we can try some other time. I just need you to hold me right now." I said laying my head on his chest.

I loved Drew and for him to say this shows me that he is serious about us.

~*Mama Lynn*~

I sat in my window sill looking out into the darkness. I have been doing this nightly just waiting for Layla to come home since the police wasn't doing much. It's one in the morning and I decided to give up. I got up and slipped my house shoes back on.

I feel like such a bad mother because I should have listened to my child. On her birthday she had told me she wasn't a baby and to give her her space. I have always given her space and was overprotective from a distance. She obviously had 'space' if she lost her virginity in Jamaica.

   "Lord I need you to watch over my child and make sure no one harms her." I said on my knees with my hands together in front of my bed along with closed eyes.

   "If I can't hold her now then just let her know that I can hold her all night long when she come home. I want you to make sure that she wakes up in the morning and come home, if not tomorrow then the next day. I just want my baby home." I said as I felt the tears drop onto my hands.

   "Please let her know that I love her and that I won't be mad when she come home. I just need her in a safe place if she ain't at home with me. Lord just please watch over my child." I said then stood up.

I wiped my tears away and walked down the hall to Sheena room. I walked in without knocking and saw her watching Jerry Springer like she do every night. She turned the tv off and patted the spot next to her. I walked over and sat down.

   "Whats wrong Lynn?" She asked bringing me into a hug.

I didn't answer but instead just broke down. I been trying to keep myself together but with Layla being gone for a month I'mma lost cause. Sheena didn't ask any questions and just let me cry. I really needed this because I been holding it in for a while now.

~*Layla Pov*~

I sat back and just watched everything that was going on around me. I was at my friend Lola house and she was having a party.

I met Lola when she picked Shacora up from Lani 'em house one day. I was outside when she pulled up and we hit it off. I liked her personality like she was cool and a loner like me. She was quiet and let people walk over her but I was the other half that stood up for her. She was into with some chick named Jewel and Jewel was always looking my way. I think she trying to get with me but I walk a straight line. She also looked like Jade from afar.

   "Layla stop being scared and partyyyy!" Shacora said passing me a cup.

I took it and looked into it. It was dark and I knew it was henny. I passed the cup back because that dark liquor give you energy and I didn't want to go off on people. I wanted to chill tonight.

   "I'm good." I said looking away.

   "Well hit this shit." She said sitting her cup down and pulling a blunt from behind her ear.

She lit it and took a puff. I watched as she started coughing and holding her chest. I took it out her out stretched hand and examined it. It somehow looked fatter and different from all the other blunts I smoked before. It also had a different smell and the smoke was thicker. I'm a smart girl so I knew it had to be a laced blunt.

   "I'm straight Sha." I said passing it back to her.

She smacked her lips and walked away. It was then that I wanted to go home. I couldn't deal with the constant partying and all the childish grown men. I made my way through the crowded living room until I made it to the back rooms.

I was just about to go into Shacora room when someone pulled me into the bathroom with they hand around my mouth. I screamed and kicked but they won and threw me to the ground. I looked into the eyes of five dudes and I knew they were drunk with smoke filled lungs.

   "Just let me go." I said backing up into a corner.

   "Naw, you been around here with all that ass hanging out them coochie cutters acting like you want the dick. I'm 'bout to give you what you been asking for." One dark skin dude said licking his lips.

   "Please y'all, don't let him do this to me." I said crying my heart out.

The other four dudes just laughed in my face and pulled they pants down. The dude talking to me just picked me up and forced himself inside of me after he ripped my shorts off.

   "Tell yo' punk ass brother Lu that Swamp, Izzo, Shaggy, Witty and Tone had they way with you bitch!" One light skin dude said then punched me in my face.

I instantly saw spots and them laughing at me. I prayed to the big man upstairs to help me before I blacked out.

A/N: Sooo tell me what cha think! The last chapter was kind of short so I decided to do another one.

Layla finally got what was coming to her for acting grown?

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