Random Oneus/we Stuff

When I Tried Getting My Friends Into Oneus (Pt. 3)

I wrote this yesterday, no I don't have class on Saturdays.

Haha so sent this to my friend yesterday but then today, oh boy, this:

We had some free time in class, so I wanted to listen to oneus with her cause she had already said she wanted to check them out. But, in the middle of red thread, she changed the song to bts. Then she changed it to exo. Basically, she completely ignored oneus and switched songs halfway to stuff she liked. I never did that to her when I listened to her music, so why do it to me?

Anyway, she gave my earbud back cause she wanted to listen to her own stuff, but then I wanted to show her all day. This was cause I want people to care and consider my recommendations and react cause all I've ever gotten were empty promises and quick "cool"s. It sucks, I just want someone to talk to and be excited with, but no one wants me to express an emotion other than apathy ig.

So, during all day she kept complaining about how too many boy groups do the "electric and hard concept" and included team yellow and oneus in that. I was really offended cause she was complaining about something I just wanted to share with her literally while I was. I had to stand up for myself and tell her that she's offending them and frankly me and I was ready to take my music and go. Then she denied like "oh, not oneus, I liked their music" but she cut off their song?? she hasn't even heard them??

The only thing she cared about were team yellow's abs, which I knew would happen. Guess the only time I'll get excited reactions is when there's hard stan content involved.

Oop and then she kept asking about txt like what's my fav song (this is when there's only that preview vid btw so the songs aren't even out yet). And when I say anything remotely negative like how I didn't like the song cats & dogs, she acts like I killed someone. I mean, I guess I understand, cause I felt that when she hated on oneus, but really now? You're acting like this group's your ult when they haven't even debuted, when you don't even know their voices.

Maybe I should learn from past experiences and not ever try to share anything I like. I'll stick to crying in silence all alone with no one who understands me.

Idk, this week's been really slow and I feel like everyone keeps personally attacking me lately for no reason. Ig my self esteem is slowly whittling away :)).

Nice to know that I have to listen to Pleasedontsuicide and stare at my favs' pics everyday to remind myself of happiness :)).