Random Oneus/we Stuff

I'm Big Emotional

Y'all I'm actually really :(( about Youngjo. I hope he's ok and feeling better. Take it day by day!

I'm so emotional, I bursted into tears when I heard him giggle in a vid. I guess I never realized how much he means to me and how I really love and care about him. He means the world to me, he is the world to me, and he's been the light in my life that I needed.

He's done so much for me and I've only known him for less than a year. His voice is so soothing to listen to and I love how soft he is. He's the cutest, never afraid to do aegyo, but is also the best hyung. He takes care of all of us, whether directly or not.

Seeing his smile and hearing his laugh always lifts my spirits. I listen to his SoundCloud all the time cause his taste is similar to mine. Don't even get me started on how much Pleasedontsuicide has done for me. I find myself listening to that song quite often as a reminder that I can and have survived and take it a day at a time and things always get better. You're only sad if you let things get to you.

I can only dream about sitting with him, sharing earbuds, listening to his playlist, and drinking tea on the couch together while the rain gently taps the window. I'd hold his hand and lean against him and smile into his chest. I'd feel the vibrations from his chest as he hums along and I'd count each heartbeat until I fall asleep. He'd move my head to his lap and massage my scalp as I sleep and wrap and blanket around us.

Wow I'm having a nice fat cry while listening to his SoundCloud and thinking about being with him. I'm really so full of love for him. Sorry if my quality/posting drops I'm actually big sad.

Please send all of your kind words, positive energy, and get well messages to him. Let's be strong so our light can lean on us. We make them, after all, and we're all here for them.

Youngjo: you are my light, my hero, and the best part of my life. I'm always here for you to lean on, let me repay you for all the times I leaned on you. I love you more than words can explain and I hope you can sense my love. You may never know me, but know that my heart will always beat in sync with yours and it will continue to no matter what happens. Sending you nothing but love, Shu.