Cheesecat log

Cheesecat Log: 3/3/19

It's 12:38 pm as I'm writing this.

I don't even know why I'm writing in the first place...

I'll most likely stay up until 1 or 2 in the morning like I do every morning and deal with the lack of sleep later.

I think what I'm just trying to say is...

Maybe you'd all be better off if I just deleted everything. Even this log. I'm not updating anymore and I guess writing was just a one time thing. But I can't find that same emotion that sparked in me a year and a half ago any more.

Well, actually I can't find a spark for anything. Nothing gets me into that stunned exhilaration or makes me feel proud anymore.

I've been thinking this through time and time again and I just don't see the point any more. I'd be better off just reading when I felt like it or just deleting the app in its entirety.

I'll leave maybe a few days at best before I start deleting my old prompts for stories that'll never come true. As well as my actual stories. Unless you guys convince me that the garbage I wrote was worth the time.

I'm sorry. I just... I don't want to deal with anything anymore. Wattpad is like my second discord. Where the second someone leaves or ignores me I just fall apart and struggle to not think of bad thoughts. I'm just going to go back to reading fanfics now.

At least here I'm not some needy hindrance that only drags people down from their real emotions.