My Immortal

Forgiveness And Coverups

**Later**:

 Dean sighed annoyed, as he stood off to the side, leaning against a tree, watching as Keeper showed the others some combat moves. He was still angry at them, but he knew that unfortunately, Keeper was right about needing them if they wanted any chance of winning the war. After agreeing to let them help he kept things strictly professional between them, treating them like soldiers. Yeah, they had apologized and he knew they all meant it, but the thought about him going dark was still there. He sighed again, maybe he was being childish, but he couldn't help it, he felt like everything he's done for them meant nothing, that he had wasted his time and love on them. He hated feeling like that; it ripped his damn heart to shreds, he still loved them and he was still desperately in love with Roman, but none of them could see past the monster they all thought he was.

 Maybe this time love just wasn't enough...maybe he wasn't enough to keep their family together? He had been seriously thinking since their fight happened about leaving after they won the war. He leave and go someplace far away and start over, only this time he wouldn't make the same mistakes by starting a new family. No, this time he'd do it alone, at least that way he wouldn't end up hurt again. He had tried so damn hard over the years to keep from ending up like the others in his family, to keep some of his morality. He hated what Vassago had made him and even though he rebelled against his family over the centuries, he never had a reason to leave them, to rid the world of his kind...until he met Roman!

 He knew his world had been completely flipped upside down and his life would never be the same again the minute he had met Roman. He had never believed in soulmates or even love, but dammit, he did now because of Roman and it hurt deeply to know that the man he loves; the only person he's ever been in love with, sees him as only a damn monster! Yeah, knowing his entire family thinks he's a monster hurts like a bitch, but Roman thinking that hurt so much more. So, to keep his heart safe and to keep everyone else alive, he decided to push all of that to the back of his mind and put all his focus and energy into the battle with Vassago, then once that son-of-a-bitch was dead; by his hands, he'll leave and start his new life. It would the hardest thing he's ever done, but it would be better than staying and living a damn lie.

 "No, no, no!" Keeper's annoyed voice spoke breaking into Dean's thoughts.

 "Dammit, what is it this time, Keeper?" Seth demanded frustrated, as they stopped training and looked at the Vamp angrily.

 "So many things, mortal!" Keeper replied bitterly.

 "Quit calling us that, dammit! Zander's not even human, remember, asshole? We're doing the best we can, so cut us a break!" Paige added angrily.

 Dean said and did nothing, he stayed where he was watching them arguing, he crossed his arms and brought his right hand to his mouth and began chewing on his thumbnail. He knew Keeper despised each of them purely because they were mortal and he believed them to be inferior to him because of that in every way; he despised Zander because he believed he was a traitor to his own kind. Keeper couldn't understand why none of them could pick up the training like him, Zander and Dean could, he expected more from them then they could give him. Dean, on the other hand, had trained them before and knew if given time each one of them could get it and even surpass any expectations. He let them argue for a few minutes, thinking that they'd be able to work something out, but when they continued going at each other Dean had had enough and decided to take control.