BAD FOR YOU (complete)

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JENNIE,

fate

/feɪt/

verb

past participle: fated

be destined to happen, turn out, or act in a particular way.

synonyms:be predestined, be preordained, be foreordained, be destined, be meant, be doomed, be foredoomed,be cursed, be damned

10:49 am . . .

The sun is out but I pay little attention.

I have no care for the heat, no care for the warm way it touches my milky skin, threatens my complexion and kisses me red.

No care for it at all.

None, no -

For my mind was, is (had been for the last twenty for hours) -- wired.

Humming and running at the speed of light - or so it felt that way.

Nervous anticipation and giddy imaginings had occupied my every thought.

Taken over my good sense and left me a mess.

"Breathe" I focus myself.

Well attempt to.

Breathe

I was on my toes, literally and figuratively.

Up, searching above the many other people who paid little attention.

They -- were moving through their lives.

And I -- was standing still in mine.

My internal workings buzzing with their same rush.

Busy, searching, hoping impatiently - moving quick the same way they do.

But -- my physical self, was not.

Because my physical self, was right where it needed to be - was told to be.

Waiting.

Here - outside Seouls busier apartment complex.

Looking ahead, eyes wide and in awe of the building.

It looked... like money. Like it spilt loose change every time the door man let someone in - or out.

Speaking of - I'm watching for the outs.

With sweaty palms and eager anticipation

I'm watching who comes out.