Sarayah August 5, 2016
Sometimes I wonder what would have happened if I hadn't been looking out that window. It's funny how life works that way. The course of your life can change with one simple choice. A few seemingly insignificant actions can shape the rest of your life. What if Bey hadn't turned around while I was playing in the sandbox? Would I have stayed August? What if I hadn't been staring out that window? Sometimes I wonder. I guess it doesn't matter though, because I was staring out that window, and I saw her. It wasn't much: the barest glimpse of a smile, a flash of eyes dark as midnight. But it was enough.I quickly looked over at Bey to see if she'd seen, but she was too busy talking to the phone guy to notice something as inconsequential as a woman walking by. I watched as she walked past our store. I ran to the window. Pressing my hands to the pane, I stared as she walked into a CD store not too far down from us.
"Sarayah."
I jumped up, surprised. I looked at her, guiltily. Had she seen her? Did she know?
"What are you up to?" She asked, suspicion in her tone.
I tried to keep my expression neutral, but it was almost impossible. I was panicking. I wasn't prepared for this. I swallowed, willing my voice to remain steady.
"Nothing. I just noticed a CD place a couple stores down. Can I go check it out?"
I watched anxiously as she sighed. I'd already expected the 'no', but when it came, I still felt irritated. I had to get in there. I pulled out all the stops, pouting and batting my eyelashes at her–a deadly combination–but the most I could get out of her was a promise to go after we got my phone set up. It would have to be enough.
I waited impatiently, a million thoughts running through my mind. What was she doing there? Was she gonna wait for me? What if I didn't get there in time? In time for what?
I tried to seem nonchalant, but as soon as I got the go ahead, I rushed out of the store. When I got to the CD place, I stopped. There she was, walking out the door. She looked up at me and smiled. Mama.
Or should I have said Alison? Who was my mama? I didn't know anymore. I shivered. She looked a little different, a little worn down. She'd also dyed her hair a light brown, but other than that she was the same. The same wry smile. The same deep brown eyes, warming when they landed on me. I stared at her, conflict written all over my face.
Alison's eyes flickered to Beyoncé, and they turned cold as ice. She walked past us, and I stiffened. She was leaving! I'd taken too long. I didn't know what to do. Did she expect me to follow her? Why would she lead me there, only to leave before I could walk in? She wouldn't. Unless she'd left something behind. I made up my mind.
I opened the door and walked in. I frowned, craning my neck to see into the aisles. How was I supposed to find whatever I was supposed to find? I didn't even know what I was looking for.
"What exactly are you looking for?" Beyoncé asked, closely echoing my thoughts.
I couldn't look her in the eye. "Nothing. I'm just browsing."
"Then get to browsing. Why you just standing here?" She asked, lightly pushing me into one of the aisles.
I purposefully walked through the aisle, trying to keep myself from shaking. Beyoncé was watching me. She was practically burning a hole through the side of my face. I flipped through some CDs. After counting to ten, I risked a quick glance back at her. Yeah, she was looking at me alright. I let out a small noise of frustration. Even if I did find something, how would I get it without Beyoncé seeing me? I tried to sneak into the next aisle, but she just followed me. She was relentless.
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