Zeke's Secret Obsession (GL) [Completed]

Chapter 15

Zeke's

Napangiti ako while I was showering kisses to her neck down on her collarbone. She's so adorable. I stopped eventually and hooked her bra. Nginitian ko siya at hinalikan ang kanyang noo. "I won't go any further, okay?"

Tumango siya pero kitang-kita ko ang paraan ng pagtingin niya sa akin. Ibang-iba ang titig ni Amber. I know that kind of stare and that's what I was feeling right now. Something growled inside me again. Sa lagkit ng titig niya ay may kung anong gumagapang sa buong sistema ko. As usual, images of her clouded my mind that I wasn't proud of. I have to get a grip of myself. I respect her.

"Don't give me that look, Amber." I said, controlling myself.

She looked confused at first. Napayuko siya, looking embarrassed. Pumikit ito at ipinilig ang ulo. "S-sorry."

Natawa ako at ginulo ang buhok niya. "It's okay."

I was happy that I have this effect on her, too.

Isa sa ikinatutuwa ko kay Amber ay kung gaano siya kabilis mahiya. She's really innocent and adorable. I felt bad because I was slowly taking that innocence dahil sa kung gaano ko siya kailangan sa buhay ko, but still, a part of me was rejoicing for letting me be a part of her life, let alone to be someone she loved.

It's too hard to control myself, I even wanted to congratulate myself for not taking her completely. I wanted her everything at ayokong magtira para sa iba. I was being too selfish. I wanted to keep Amber for myself. I was like a predator who wanted to ravish her prey until she ran out of breath—but I can't.

I love Amber too much that I can't let her get hurt. I respect her too much. At isa pa...kailangan ko pang aminin sa kanya kung sino at ano talaga ako. Ayokong sa iba niya pa malaman. Kailangan niyang malaman ang totoo kahit anong mangyari.

Kung gaano kalakas ang loob kong gawin sa kanya 'to, ganoon din dapat kalakas ang loob ko para aminin sa kanya ang lahat. Wala akong inaatrasan na kahit anong problema.

"Amber, halika na," sabi ko. "mag-ayos ka na, may pupuntahan tayo."

Tumango lang siya habang nakatitig sa'kin. Parang nag-aalangan pa. "Zekhaila?"

"Bakit?" Lumapit ako sa kanya at hinawakan ang kamay niya.

Agad naman siyang namula sa ginawa ko at mukhang nahihirapan pa ring sabihin ang dapat niyang sabihin.

"Can I...hug you?" She stuttered. Pulang-pulang na rin siya at kung saan-saan tumitingin maliban sa'kin. Natawa tuloy ako dahil sa pagiging cute niya.

I opened my arms and smiled widely. "Come, yakapin mo na ako."

Lumapit siya sa'kin at dahan-dahan akong niyakap. Pahigpit ng pahigpit iyon pero hindi nakakasakal dahil masarap sa pakiramdam. Masarap sa feeling dahil ganito kalapit ang mahal ko. I hugged her back. This was just too perfect and overwhelming. Her body felt like it was meant to be this close to mine and, her warmth─I really needed it.

Bumitaw na kami parehas. Kapwa rin kaming nakangiti ng wagas. My stomach crumbled, maybe my butterflies took a major flip. Ito yung smile ni Amber na bihira ko lang makita kaya dapat pahalagahan at i-treasure.

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Nagsuot lang ako ng fitted shirt na pinatungan ko ng navy blue na cardigan, leggings and high heeled boots. Naka-high ponytail lang ang buhok ko. Bumaba na ako at nakita kong ayos na rin si Amber. She looked pretty on her black t-shirt na may malaking star sa gitna at jeans with two inched heels. All black na naman as usual.

Lumapit ako sa kanya. I intertwined our hands together. She was about to pull it away but I didn't let her. She just shook her head and I know she's trying to suppress a smile. Halata, eh. She looked like she's about to smirk. "Amber?"