*:･ﾟ✧*:･ﾟ STONER.| ❝ i don't know what living a balanced life feels like, when i am sad, i don't cry i pour, when i am happy, i don't smile i glow, when i am angry, i don't yell i burn, the good thing about feeling in extremes is when i love , i giv...
" I CANT SMELL THE FLOWERS, FELT EMPTY NOW FOR HOURS."
"IVE LOST MY POWERS."
"WASTING TIME JUST GETTING HIGH, GETTING HIGH TO GET BY, CLEAR MY MIND ADD BLUE SKIES."
"I CANT SMELL THE FLOWERS, IM SICK OF ALL THESE TOWERS, DONE TO MANY DOWNERS."
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THAT NIGHT , I laid in Edwards arms, but my heart didn't feel safe like it once did. I only wanted to recoil into myself, in fear of what laid behind my eyelids. What I would see. I no longer welcomed the darkness, I was a caster afraid of her own shadow, of what laid beyond the never ending abyss.
I no longer believed Edward could truly fight my demons, Edward was, is, my safe space. I wouldn't let some dream, premonition, nightmare. Ruin the slight happiness I had, I..I couldn't. I didn't want my demons ruining him, I didn't want to let my barriers down in my sleep and Edward see the true pain that laid within.
So, I laid there head on his chest as his arms held me tightly, firmly holding me to his side. He trailed his finger trailed up down my spine as we laid wrapped under blankets, my leg hitched up his waist. I glared into the darkness, it was well past midnight, and from Edwards gaze burning into the top of my head, he was beginning to worry.
"Love?" He called softly, his chest vibrating with the base of his voice.
I sighed, looking up to him, my chin resting on chest. I hummed softly, gazing into his worried eyes. "Are you upset with me?" I couldn't help but laugh softly at his question, I shook my head at him.
"I think you think too much of me darling." I sat up now straddling his waist and cupping his cheeks softly in my hands. I brought my forehead down to his, his hands now softly rubbed my thighs, he shook his head gently.
"There will never be too much of you, I still can't even get enough of you, I never want it to end." He smirked devilishly, and bam my heart couldn't help but react once more, I felt jittery and wanted. Beautiful in his arms, Edward made me feel like my beauty wasn't just my looks, but me entirely.
I smiled gleefully, a drastic mood change from my once bitterness, he manages to spark something in me that nobody else can. I leaned forward, placing my lips on his, we moved slow basking in each other.
He was the first to pull away, not wanting to push me too far, "we have school tomorrow pretty baby."
I groaned, rolling off him into my bed, shoving my face into the pillow. "I'm not going, I refuse."
"You have too, come on, one more day and then it's the weekend." I wanted to throw up knowing the end of the week was so close, Friday's made me sick, it only meant time was going by.
