❧R E M O R S E ❧ [the sequel]

❧six ❧

D A W N
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"What was that about?" Michelle whispers to me as she shuts the front door behind us. The humidity of the room warms my skin as I take in the smell of roses that have been created by the air fresheners on the wall

"Shh. Can we talk about this after I put her in  bed?" I ask as I direct my eyes towards Adalyn, who's soundfully fallen asleep in my arms.

She ignores what I said and takes a seat on the sofa while I walk upstairs and tuck Adalyn in bed. I hear her small snores and smile as I rub my finger along her cheek.

She's all I need

I give her a kiss and feel her squirm under my touch so I pull away and shut the door to the bedroom halfway before heading downstairs.

"So tell me what that was about" I hear Michelle say before I can even make it all the way down the flight of red carpeted stairs.

"I wasn't gonna let him see her, Michelle. I'm sorry but no"

"I thought you wanted to see him again" she replied to me confusedly as she placed one leg over the other and sulked into the warmth of the couch pillow

"Well i don't know— when I saw him I forgot about that and thought logically"

"Okay tell me about your thinking process"

"I'm not gonna let any man into Adalyn's life right now. And I don't want him to get attached to her. The child isn't even his" I say as I sit on the opposite side of the room, staring at the floor as my thoughts wander

"Whether she was his or not. He saw her being birthed. He felt an attachment to her and then you left"

"So now it's my fault?"

"No" Michelle begins. "But you have to look at the situation both ways. I feel.. bad for him"

"I do too" I say shaking my head. "I feel really bad. But he hates me and I don't know if I wanna build a relationship with him again. And he's moved on anyways"

I wasn't surprised to see he's moved on. Mattia's always been the type of guy to move on. Although I'm guessing it wasn't easy on him at first, he was able to begin a new life.

And I'm proud of him for that. But I doubt he sees the situation the same way.

"That hurts you doesn't it" she says with a sympathetic grin

"Phftt no" I laugh. "Why would that hurt me"

"Because you've loved him since you were a kid. And I bet you still do-"

"Don't. I don't" I chuckle

"So why haven't you moved on"

"I have"

"You would've found someone else. Or at least tried to. All these years I've known you, you havent tried to be with someone else"

"I haven't found the time Michelle" I half smile. Or the heart. Being with someone else when I was devoted to someone for so long... I'm afraid .