I wish I would of told her I loved her, before alzheimers came for her.
The memories of me spiking her tea to go out with friends, are my close friends now
I can't remember to forget how I harshly spoke to her
Her hugs haunt me
She looks at me as if I were heaven
The demons in me will never let me forget that I am far from heavenly
She beams when I'm in sight
I can't forget how her eyes used to lump up in tears when seeing me
I don't deserve her
Nor kindness
Nor her alzheimers
Cause I brought her so much pain and now she thinks I'm her universe!
Her smile inflates when I'm around into multi-laughter
I wish I could say sorry
But I bite down the apologizes and wither in regret
I love how she loves me still
