Kiss the Wind

Chapter 37

Chapter 37: Realizations and Letting Go

Flynn's PoV

After several hours of dealing with my own butterflies, napag-isipan kong tawagan si Rome dahil ang alam ko ay nakabalik na siya rito sa Pilipinas.

I needed to get myself out of our house para hindi na ako mapuno sa kakaisip kay Duke. Isa pa, I'm still having second thoughts on whether I have to continue what I said to Duke, o tulad ng sabi niya, 'wag na lang.

Well, at some point, I do understand his side. Duke has always been a non-believer of love. And by the time he was starting to be one, I left him behind, hanging.

If only he knew how I wanted to stay instead of going away. Pero wala, eh. Hindi nga bumibigay yung puso ko, bumibigay naman ang utak ko.

I just sighed and flashed a small smile bago kinuha ang phone ko na nasa side table. Tama, I'll just have fun today then think about it when I get home.

After a few rings I heard a jolly voice at the other side of the phone. Agad naman akong napangiti nang sinsero dahil dito. Yeah, I think I can clear my head with him accompanying me.

"Hi, 'by!"

"Hi, anong oras ka dumating nung isang araw? Sorry, I also couldn't meet with you yesterday. Alam mo naman kung anong pinunta ko rito."

"It's fine, I don't want to bother you. I know na-miss ka nila tita. Mga gabi na rin ata ako nakarating. Nga pala, why did you call? May problem ba?"

"Uhm, I know you also have things to do. But are you free today?"

I heard Rome chuckle for the other line of the call. I, on the other hand, just smiled widely dahil alam ko na ang magiging sagot niya sa akin.

"Of course, 'by! Anytime! Syempre, ikaw pa. Alam mo namang malakas ka sa akin, eh."

"Thanks, Rome. Anyway, tara gumala. Ang boring dito sa bahay, eh."

"Sure! What time should I pick you up?"

"In an hour, siguro. Mag-gagayak lang ako."

"Okay. In an hour then. See you later, 'by. I love you."

"Thank you, Rome. Bye."

Pagka-baba ng tawag, agad akong pumunta sa cabinet ko para mamili ng isusuot kong damit mamaya 'pag gumala na kami ni Rome.

Geez, I should really try to tell Rome to stop having feelings for me. I know na nasasaktan siya kapag hindi ako nakakasagot sa mga "I love you" niya. And I know how it hurts to bring that burden along.

And I'm not that bad to make him carry that burden with him too.

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"Where do you want to go now? Palakad-lakad lang naman tayo dito sa mall. Are you sure you're not buying anything?" muling tanong ni Rome sa akin kaya naman napahagikgik na lang ako. 

It's true though.

Mahigit isang oras na yata kaming palakad-lakad lang dito sa mall without buying anything. And being the man that he is, alam kong hindi siya nakakasabay sa ganitong trip ng babae.

Well, I don't enjoy shopping as well. To be honest, I would rather lie down on my bed and continue reading some medicine books than having the whole day wasted here at the mall.

But like I said earlier, I need to clear up my mind. I'm having a lot of "what ifs" encircling in my mind and for some reason, I'm freaking out because of it.