Kiss the Wind

Chapter 40

Chapter 40: Time Will Tell

Flynn's PoV

Agad akong bumaba ng sasakyan ko and just picked my car keys as soon as I got in front of his house.

My heart's still racing because of what I heard from Clad earlier. I can still feel the pain from our conversation. I still have a lot to digest, but I can't think of anything than taking care of this.

With my eyes still wet from my tears, I rang the doorbell and waited for the man inside to get to me. Ang tanging bagay lang na umiikot sa isipan ko ngayon ay masiguradong makikita ko siya.

"Yes?"

I bit my lip and jumped to him to hug him. Naramdaman ko ang paninigas niya sa kinatatayuan niya, pero hinayaan niya lang akong yakapin siya.

My lip started to tremble as I felt the wet liquid that ran through my cheeks. I held him tightly and closed my eyes shut as I let my emotions run through me.

Wala na akong pakialam kung anong mangyayari pag-katapos nito. Right now, I just want to hold him tightly and make him feel wanted once again. I want him to feel what I failed to give him before.

Unti-unti akong inilayo ni Duke sa kaniya at nang mag-tama ang paningain namin dalawa ay agad niya rin akong binitawan at umiwas ng tingin. I immediately wiped my tears away at napayuko na lamang dahil sa ginawa ko.

"Let's talk about it inside."

"O-Okay."

Duke and I went inside his house with a very disturbing silence surrounding us. He let me stay on his living room habang siya naman ay pumunta sa kusina para kumuha ng maiinom namin.

I just fiddled my fingers as I blushed. Napakagat ako sa labi ko dahil sa hiya nang maalala ko ang ginawa ko kanina. Because of my adrenaline rush, I couldn't think of anything but hugging him that time.

Napalingon naman ako sa direksiyon ni Duke nang makita siyang lumabas mula sa kusina na may dala-dalang dalawang baso ng tubig. He sat across me, before he handed the drink to me.

"D-Don't you have anyone else here to run the errands for you?"

Umiling-iling naman si Duke bago niya ininom ang kaniyang tubig at tumingin sa akin. Napakagat naman ako sa labi ko at pilit na iniiwas ang tingin ko habang pinag-lalaruan ang mga daliri ko.

"I don't need one. I can handle myself just fine. I've been doing it for years anyway," sabi ni Duke at saka niya ibinaling ang kaniyang atensyon sa labas.

"Okay," maikling sagot ko na lamang kay Duke bago ako yumuko.

After that "hug scene" that we had earlier, hindi ko na alam kung sa'ng lupalop ng mundo ko pa itatago yung hiya ko.

I mentally face-palmed nang maalala ang naging reaksiyon niya kanina. Of course, he wouldn't comfort me or anything dahil we're currently not in the position for him to do so.

Everything is still complicated between us.

I took a deep breath before I bitterly smiled. Up until now, hindi ko pa rin mapakalma ang sarili ko dahil sa mga narinig ko kanina sa café.

I mean, everything is still too much to take in. First, there's that thing about Duke. I still can't believe that he's tracing me for the past years, but still managed to act innocent.

Then there's the situation of Mom Louisa. I somehow blame myself because of what happened to her. But like I said before, there are things that couldn't be solved if I stayed. Though I really feel guilty and hurting from what happened.