my brothers best friend.
that's what you've always been.
you showed up in my living room one day and that was it.
but apparently i was 'off limits'
but you didn't listen, and we hid us, we hid the love we shared, the touches we shared, everything...
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✵ song of chapter be my mistake - the 1975
"i don't want a hug, i just wanna sleep.....while i see how much drink i can take, then be my mistake."
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FALLING . chapter fifty-seven
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We are more like each other than ourselves.
That's what I tell myself every time I wander off gazing at his oceans.
It sounds strange to say it out loud if I'm being completely honest, but It couldn't be any more true.
I can't even bring in an analogy cause It couldn't be more obvious how whenever I feel as if everything is collapsing one by one, the image of blue wonders bring me back to any bit of sanity left in me.
I was so lost, well- I still am to say to the least, but he's home to me and It's something I can't deny at this point.
Just to know that one person, or something is there for you- and is always present when you need it is what we all search for.
My sweet creature.
He's most likely sleeping soundly in his bed, even if It's nearly 4 in the afternoon. It doesn't bother me in the slightest, because I know there's been times where he's laid awake in his own comfort, no longer familiar with what it meant to find rest.
That's exactly what played out the other day, after I woke up from the horrid film displayed inside my head.
He simply held me close until all my non visible scars faded into light bruises.
And I appreciated it more than ever, because these last few weeks have definitely been my most fragile state.
Every sense of security or strength present before was quickly turned into amuck, diminished into thin air like nothing.
It still confuses me, even right now as I lay in my bed- the position becoming like glue to me, an instinct at this point to trudge my body over to the soft cushion. That just how quickly everything changed in the span of one night.
