❝𝐁𝐘 𝐘𝐎𝐔𝐑 𝐒𝐈𝐃𝐄❞

11 || Disgust

The next day Hongjoong planned that he'll call Seonghwa early and so here he was waiting for Seonghwa to arrive since he agreed. It was 12:20 in the afternoon and Hongjoong was just sitting at the couch looking through his phone while waiting.

Suddenly, he felt the bell ring. Knowing who it would be he got up happily and went straight for the door. As he opened it, he was mesmerized again. Seonghwa looked heavenly like an angel. How could he do that to him? He is going crazy seeing Seonghwa in a white shirt with blue jeans. He looks so handsome but then when doesn't he? At least to Hongjoong he always does.

Hongjoong stared at him busy in his thoughts after he felt a voice bringing him back from them. "Hey, Hongjoong you okay?" But after he heard that voice he was again ready to get lost in his thoughts but his inner self just slapped him before that could happen. 'Hey Hongjoong! Get back before he just runs away seeing you get all weird!' He heard his inner self say and he immediately shook his head and smiled up at Seonghwa.

"H-Hey! Sorry! Were you saying something? And please come in!" Hongjoong said to Seonghwa stepping aside for him to come in. Seonghwa just looked at Hongjoong before entering. Hongjoong looked as if he was busy in his thoughts. He even asked him if he was alright but he didn't answer. 'Maybe he is still not alright from yesterday?'

Seonghwa just shook his head and tried not to think too much. It's not like he can ask Hongjoong or else he'll feel bad. And he doesn't want to make him feel more bad than he probably does right now. It's better to focus on what he is here for rather than something that would do nothing but bad to the other one.

They went to Hongjoong's room like the last time and sat to study. While studying Seonghwa couldn't help but look at Hongjoong every now and then to check whether he looked alright or not. Hongjoong, on the other side did the same the whole time so that he can check whether Seonghwa is alright or not, seeing how he acted last time.

It was around 4 that Hongjoong said it was alright to stop for today. Not wanting to leave but still not wanting to show any weird behaviour either, Seonghwa got up from the chair he was sitting on. "I-I'll go now, then." He didn't look in Hongjoong's eyes and so he didn't see the slight sadness in them.

Hongjoong didn't want Seonghwa to leave yet but since he isn't actually a friend of Seonghwa yet, at least not from Seonghwa's side he decided to not say anything. Also, he felt that like the last time Seonghwa would just say no to stay for a bit longer.

Hongjoong saw Seonghwa leave from there on his bike. Looking at his retreating self, Hongjoong smiled a bit before sighing and going inside. He decided to just go and meet his parents and so he went to his room so that he can change.

Seonghwa, on the other hand just rode his bike but stopped at a cafe for a bit. Maybe some coffee will help him not think about Hongjoong much. He got inside and then sat near a window. The sun was ready to set in fully after some hours but for now it wasn't dark at all. He looked out but was eventually interrupted by a waitress at the cafe for his order.

He looked up at the waitress smiling at him. "Excuse me sir, what would you like to order?" She asked while bowing a bit. "Ah, I would like an americano, please." He said not having any intention to sound rude without giving a smile in return or even looking up again.

He sat there waiting for his coffee when he saw someone he probably never expected nor wanted to see. It was.......a woman with a man. Both, the woman and man sat just before him, not noticing who he was.

He suddenly felt his blood boil and become cold at the same time. He felt angry as well as frozen for a bit. The first thing that came to his mind was just get up and.......LEAVE.

The waitress that was bringing his coffee stood shocked calling after him to stop, but he didn't care. He didn't want to care in the first place. The woman looked so happy with that man. She just didn't look the way he probably saw her at some point in his life.

She felt disgusting. That man felt disgusting. Since they were there, the cafe felt disgusting as well. He just couldn't help but be disgusted by everything that the woman and man held with them. But most importantly he felt disgusted by himself.

He just got on his bike and rode it furiously again. Usually at this time he would go to this Dad. But, today he felt so disgusted that he couldn't do that. He didn't have the courage of showing his filthy self to his Dad.

He couldn't help but tell himself that he needs to make a choice. Now! If not now, then never! He just went straight for the place he felt he would be fully alone at. No one would be able to stop him and that's all.

While Seonghwa left the cafe on one side, Hongjoong was ready to go say goodbye to his parents, on the other. He got up bowing once to both his parents' graves before he smiled and said "Goodbye, Mom and Dad!" After that he turned away and started leaving the graveyard.

It wasn't fully dark yet and since Hongjoong didn't have anything to do either, he thought that he'll just go for a walk, and he knew where he'll be heading to. He'll go the river he went to yesterday. Since it isn't that dark it would be better than yesterday and he'll have more to look forward to.

He walked quietly, enjoying the cold wind flow by rather than feeling annoyed by it. He looked around while walking and this place felt really calming. No one Hongjoong met here, has been bad to him.

After sometime he reached his destination. He walked around enjoying, listening to the sound of river flowing. Nobody was at the place like yesterday and to be honest though Hongjoong felt lonely he still felt nice.

He looked at his wrist staring at the silver bracelet and remembering his parents' words.

"Wherever you go if you feel lonely, you can always remember that we are there for you. That the ones who love and care for you are always there with you. That they are always by your side."

He stared at it and smiled. Suddenly, he heard a splash sound and he immediately turned to look where the sound came from and seeing that someone fell in the river, he ran straight towards the person,hoping he'll save them.

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Okay, everybody! Since it's the last day of the year. I wish you happy new year! and here are my new year double updates!

Also, since many of you wanted me to post this so that you guys can see though they aren't made good enough by me and can't be called fully complete I'll still post them here!

(The drawing belongs to me but the real picture doesn't. Credits to the owners of these lovely picture!)