❝𝐁𝐘 𝐘𝐎𝐔𝐑 𝐒𝐈𝐃𝐄❞

27 || Hiding

Seonghwa sat in his room later that day. He hasn't talked to Hongjoong the whole day to be honest. They were together but they didn't speak anything. He hadn't gone home with Hongjoong either today. Hongjoong told that he has to go pick his grandma from the station and had left early without him knowing. The others didn't seem to realise until he had heard San ask him a question. He doesn't even know how San got to know in the first place.

San had asked him:

"Hey Seonghwa, do you like Hongjoong?"

To be honest Seonghwa isn't sure of this question either. He hasn't been able to have the courage to talk to Hongjoong the whole day because of what he did yesterday. He still remembers how Hongjoong's lips felt like feathers but tasted like strawberries. How he just wanted nothing to taste those lips again and again. They were addicting. Nothing more or less.

But now all the consequences of yesterday's kiss are pouring down on him like rain and Seonghwa is left with a question that is like a broken umbrella. Only the right answer to that question can help him fix the umbrella and save himself from the rain of awkwardness. And how can Seonghwa know what is the right answer? Simple. The answer is what his heart says to him.

But that's the thing, he isn't sure himself what his heart says to him. One moment it says that you don't deserve anything but the other says be selfish and stay with people who are ready to stay with you like Hongjoong. One moment it believes what Hongjoong says and the other it says that Hongjoong wouldn't mean it in the future. One moment it feels that he wants to leave everything and just do what he wants but the other it feels like he will end up becoming the same way he was in his childhood to his mom. A curse.

He doesn't want to be that for Hongjoong or anyone anymore. And if he does like Hongjoong but Hongjoong doesn't then he sure is becoming that to him. Everything just feels so different and warm when he is with Hongjoong while the next moment when he is alone he feels lonely but as soon as Hongjoong comes or even a single thought of him crosses his mind he finds himself smiling and looking forward to meeting him.

He isn't sure anymore what to do but what he feels is that he has fallen for Hongjoong. And maybe too hard to stop even if Hongjoong doesn't like him in return. Maybe that's what his fate is, to stay alone. If he tells Hongjoong then surely Hongjoong will leave him like everyone else but he knows that Hongjoong won't be wrong in that. That, his mistake led Hongjoong to leave him. Hongjoong can never be wrong in such a thing. It's him who is wrong.

Maybe he should just try apologizing for yesterday. That way at least he can know if Hongjoong is alright or not. Maybe he should do that. Seonghwa takes his phone from the nightstand and opens it. The screen lights up, it's glow on Seonghwa's handsome angelic features. His blonde hair getting more brighter as they shine in the slightly dark room.

He looks at the Lock Screen for sometime wondering if he should do this or not. Deciding to just make use of the time, Seonghwa opened Hongjoong's number and starting guiding his fingers on the keyboard.

Seonghwa
Hey Hongjoong....It's me Seonghwa.

Seonghwa reads the text once before clicking on the send button and waiting. When he didn't get a text back for the next ten minutes Seonghwa just figured Hongjoong must be busy. Sighing, and putting his phone back on the nightstand, Seonghwa just lied down. Seonghwa stared at the ceiling busy in his own thoughts.

He likes Hongjoong, he does a lot probably but....Hongjoong most probably doesn't. Why would he even like someone like him? Hongjoong is just a sweet person. He loves everyone and helps every single person without a word. Even when Hongjoong told Seonghwa how he experienced something similar to him without a single idea of it, Seonghwa saw how Hongjoong didn't blame Jungkook even a single bit.